I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
I would've said yes. If I'd asked you, a part of me thinks you would've said yes.
But instead you kinda broke my heart. But if you came back, said you were sorry, and then said what I think we both didn't say back then.. I'd maybe still say yes.
6 months ago I would've said yes. 1 week ago you told me you had planned to propose on our holiday. 2 weeks before that I had told you I didn't love you anymore.
Today you told me it didn't matter if I loved you, you would have enough love for the both of us and you would wait for me. I wish you wouldn't.
...and with my desire and impatience to hear those words, and my insecurity of not believing you would ever say them, I made you change your mind just as the words were about to fall from your lips.
I apologize, both to you and to myself, for my sabotage.
And he said just that as I was telling him I had chosen Ben. And he was crying and shaking.
I think about that night now when I see his name scroll past on movie credits. I thought about it again when his update showed up on linked in. He's made it big.
I thought about it as I sent him the email to congratulate him. I got back a note about how "they" were going to move to France until the job offer.
He has not asked her to marry him. He didn't have to. They met months after the night he said he should have asked me to marry him.
No. No he shouldn't have asked me to marry him. His live turned out just fine. And so did mine.
Going to isn't good enough. If you loved really loved me you wouldn't have to think about it, I wouldn't have to wait, we wouldn't be broken. Going to isn't good enough...
If you wanted to ask, why didnt you? but even if I said yes, you' just laugh in my face and say it was a prank. I love you, but it doesnt seem to matter
I was going to ask you to marry me.
I was going to say yes.
ReplyDeleteIf you ask me now, I'll still say yes!
ReplyDeleteIf you ask me a week from now, I'll still say yes!
No matter when you ask me, as long as you ask, I will say yes!
I just wish you had asked before you changed your mind...
<3 o.
I know.
ReplyDeleteSo why did you break up with me instead?
I would've said yes. If I'd asked you, a part of me thinks you would've said yes.
ReplyDeleteBut instead you kinda broke my heart. But if you came back, said you were sorry, and then said what I think we both didn't say back then.. I'd maybe still say yes.
and I was going to say no...
ReplyDeleteFunny, I was going to ask you the same question.
ReplyDeleteYou asked a long time ago, but prefaced it with "When I'm ready".
ReplyDeleteSo now I'm left to wonder...will you ever be ready?
6 months ago I would've said yes. 1 week ago you told me you had planned to propose on our holiday. 2 weeks before that I had told you I didn't love you anymore.
ReplyDeleteToday you told me it didn't matter if I loved you, you would have enough love for the both of us and you would wait for me. I wish you wouldn't.
aww how sweet/sad.
ReplyDelete...and with my desire and impatience to hear those words, and my insecurity of not believing you would ever say them, I made you change your mind just as the words were about to fall from your lips.
ReplyDeleteI apologize, both to you and to myself, for my sabotage.
...i'm hoping this day will come. :(
ReplyDeleteAnd he said just that as I was telling him I had chosen Ben. And he was crying and shaking.
ReplyDeleteI think about that night now when I see his name scroll past on movie credits. I thought about it again when his update showed up on linked in. He's made it big.
I thought about it as I sent him the email to congratulate him. I got back a note about how "they" were going to move to France until the job offer.
He has not asked her to marry him.
He didn't have to. They met months after the night he said he should have asked me to marry him.
No.
No he shouldn't have asked me to marry him. His live turned out just fine. And so did mine.
And what changed was you.
ReplyDeletein a heartbeat..after 4 years..i would still say yes to you
ReplyDeleteThen why did you leave me?
ReplyDeleteGoing to isn't good enough. If you loved really loved me you wouldn't have to think about it, I wouldn't have to wait, we wouldn't be broken.
ReplyDeleteGoing to isn't good enough...
i know.
ReplyDeletebut i can't take it anymore.
i'm sorry.
I didn't know.
ReplyDeleteIf I knew I would have waited. I wouldn't have forced myself to forget you. I would have done many things that I didn't do.
I don't need marriage...
Now I just want you.
WHAT? Back then? You're insane! In the best way ever. I love you.
ReplyDeleteno, you weren't. I'm not sure if you'll ever.
ReplyDeletemaybe you should have paid more attention to me.
ReplyDeleteI think the question is 'When?'
ReplyDeleteIf you wanted to ask, why didnt you? but even if I said yes, you' just laugh in my face and say it was a prank. I love you, but it doesnt seem to matter
ReplyDeleteI know you were. You told me just that. But perhaps we'll get a chance later on. I do indeed hope so. :)
ReplyDelete