I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
The Sun Or The Moon
Things change the way you feel. And things change.
Thank you, dear ME, for being here and for your persistent writing. Congrats on your 597th post. I have only seen the last few and a few early ones. It makes a difference to my view of the world. And a different difference to everyone else who reads this and gets it their way. And so it it is.
Contradicts? To me, not really; someone's logical + perhaps well-meaning argument is generally not very persuasive over your feelings. The sun creeping out from behind a cloud and shining on your face is an entirely different story.
he wrote me a song about when the sun found the moon, and this post made me cry, and remember how I thought my feelings would never ever change, and they didn't only his did, and now...i am just heartbroken.
The more time I spend not being able to decide, the more I am debating between two changes, the more I decide between letting go and loving, the more I decide between ending things because he betrayed me, or working things through because I love him, is the more I will drive myself insane. I will be content with none of these things. I wish I knew what it meant to take someone back after they cheat. It must be different for every boy and girl. I haven't made up my mind yet, and he's waiting. He says I love you, I say I love you. But, I love you. I feel there's nothing I can do to feel good about myself because he's what I want, but I don't want what's he's done. I only think back and it eats me up. I think, is this really right? Who's to say? Me? Iain, I don't know where she went.
'...as long as you can promise not to break my little heart and leave me all alone in the summer'
This can happen to friendships too. It has. Recently. I believe that heartbreak and that loss can hurt just as much as any other. I've tried to change the way I feel to make change feel okay.
Truth is, I just don't fit this change and I've been let down and torn apart by the one person who I trusted to make it all okay.
You fake a smile, a laugh and try to move on. Lock that piece of your heart away, it will never fix.
Most days I'm good. Really. But tonight I think it's pickin on me.
I lost one of my best friends, my trusted confidant, the person that laughed at the random things I'd ramble on about...
You loved me. I know that now.
Tomorrow I will stand up again and ignore all of those things. Tonight I'll let these tears fall because I am not sure anything will stop them. Except you. But that's over. I miss you. I love you. :(
I lost my best friend , love of my life n the most important gal in my life becoz of my stupidity n foolishness... but I read somewhere that sometimes we have to fall apart to realise the importance. So times we have to lose our mind to get to senses. I know its too late but its better than never. I love u so much that my fear of losing u as a friend was more than fear of winning. May be I was the one to blame n accept my faults. But I guess I was not brave to take a chance .. but now I don't want have regrets. I can turn any table upside down just to be with u.. n u know that. I love pls give a chance
Things change the way you feel. And things change.
Thank you, dear ME, for being here and for your persistent writing. Congrats on your 597th post. I have only seen the last few and a few early ones. It makes a difference to my view of the world. And a different difference to everyone else who reads this and gets it their way. And so it it is.
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ReplyDelete...It found me!
ReplyDeleteYour feelings changed.
ReplyDeleteI thought we made a good team. I hope you come back because I don't think I'll find someone much like you any time soon.
.... please get out of my head. please?
ReplyDeleteKind of contradicts the previous post.
ReplyDeleteContradicts? To me, not really; someone's logical + perhaps well-meaning argument is generally not very persuasive over your feelings. The sun creeping out from behind a cloud and shining on your face is an entirely different story.
ReplyDeleteThanks for reminding me that this too, shall pass. It helps me weather the downtime, and mindful of enjoying the good times while they're in town.
ReplyDeleteThen I guess I didn't write it for you.
ReplyDeletePro-tip: go read something else.
Chop: Insightful as always <3
he wrote me a song about when the sun found the moon, and this post made me cry, and remember how I thought my feelings would never ever change, and they didn't only his did, and now...i am just heartbroken.
ReplyDeletethis makes me smile... things may have changed the way i feel but i guess it is for the better...=)
ReplyDeleteand yeah i dont see how it contradicts the previous post at all.. if anything else.. it answers questions raised from the previous post.
and change is not always reversible. even if it were, changing changes would always be more complex than simply changing.
ReplyDeleteThe more time I spend not being able to decide, the more I am debating between two changes, the more I decide between letting go and loving, the more I decide between ending things because he betrayed me, or working things through because I love him, is the more I will drive myself insane.
ReplyDeleteI will be content with none of these things.
I wish I knew what it meant to take someone back after they cheat. It must be different for every boy and girl.
I haven't made up my mind yet, and he's waiting.
He says I love you, I say I love you. But, I love you.
I feel there's nothing I can do to feel good about myself because he's what I want, but I don't want what's he's done. I only think back and it eats me up.
I think, is this really right?
Who's to say?
Me? Iain, I don't know where she went.
I don't know where I've gone.
ReplyDeleteHe's helped me sing my song, for so long.
Fuck.
my favorite song. i always knew it was about you...
ReplyDelete'...as long as you can promise not to break my little heart and leave me all alone in the summer'
ReplyDeleteThis can happen to friendships too. It has. Recently. I believe that heartbreak and that loss can hurt just as much as any other.
I've tried to change the way I feel to make change feel okay.
Truth is, I just don't fit this change and I've been let down and torn apart by the one person who I trusted to make it all okay.
You fake a smile, a laugh and try to move on. Lock that piece of your heart away, it will never fix.
Most days I'm good. Really. But tonight I think it's pickin on me.
ReplyDeleteI lost one of my best friends, my trusted confidant, the person that laughed at the random things I'd ramble on about...
You loved me. I know that now.
Tomorrow I will stand up again and ignore all of those things. Tonight I'll let these tears fall because I am not sure anything will stop them. Except you. But that's over. I miss you. I love you. :(
I lost my best friend , love of my life n the most important gal in my life becoz of my stupidity n foolishness... but I read somewhere that sometimes we have to fall apart to realise the importance. So times we have to lose our mind to get to senses. I know its too late but its better than never. I love u so much that my fear of losing u as a friend was more than fear of winning. May be I was the one to blame n accept my faults. But I guess I was not brave to take a chance .. but now I don't want have regrets. I can turn any table upside down just to be with u.. n u know that. I love pls give a chance
ReplyDelete