I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
The Flanking Positions
Well then let them hate you but let it be because you are a good person in a bad world and bad always hates good.
I really have no idea what hit me or more important what the hell hit me. I want answers that I know I will never get but I want those damn answers. Why? Why so long? Was any of it the truth? Was it all planned from the beginning? You could have walked away so many times and spaired me so much pain. I am not stronger for it I am just in more pain than I was in when you came back. I never knew you and its not because I didn't want to its because you didn't want to give yourself to me. Why? Why? Why? You will be the greatest disappointment of my life and believe me thats saying alot. You have left me dead, dead just dead but I am still alive but dead. How dead can I be and still keep walking, breathing, eating.... I dont cry anymore, I dont hate anymore and the best sign maybe true death is near I dont dream anymore. I cant tell how many times I run this bad dream in my head everyday, over and over an over. "My baby is a centerfold"
I am taking a class to help me cope with this. They say things like "grief is the price we pay for loving someone" and "one day they will just be someone who was in your life". ust makes you feel all warm inside doesn't it?
Well then let them hate you but let it be because you are a good person in a bad world and bad always hates good.
For that is truly the most satisfying way to be hated.
ReplyDeletethank you. i definitely needed this right now.
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HATE is such a strong word. I'm grateful for that.
ReplyDeleteHe needs this. You know who I am.
ReplyDeleteExactly.
ReplyDeleteI like this :)
ReplyDeletethank you for that (:
ReplyDeleteYes.Great.
ReplyDeleteBut let's not assume we are always on the good side because of this.
This really puts to words what I've been feeling for a very long time. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteYou've got some really beautiful photos here.
ReplyDeleteBest,
David
http://www.globalaroundtown.blogspot.com
I really have no idea what hit me or more important what the hell hit me. I want answers that I know I will never get but I want those damn answers. Why? Why so long? Was any of it the truth? Was it all planned from the beginning? You could have walked away so many times and spaired me so much pain. I am not stronger for it I am just in more pain than I was in when you came back. I never knew you and its not because I didn't want to its because you didn't want to give yourself to me. Why? Why? Why?
ReplyDeleteYou will be the greatest disappointment of my life and believe me thats saying alot. You have left me dead, dead just dead but I am still alive but dead. How dead can I be and still keep walking, breathing, eating.... I dont cry anymore, I dont hate anymore and the best sign maybe true death is near I dont dream anymore.
I cant tell how many times I run this bad dream in my head everyday, over and over an over. "My baby is a centerfold"
i'm so sorry for your sadness. I've been there :(
ReplyDeleteit gets better.
I am taking a class to help me cope with this. They say things like "grief is the price we pay for loving someone" and "one day they will just be someone who was in your life". ust makes you feel all warm inside doesn't it?
ReplyDeleteBut everyone in that 'bad world' is just one more person who thinks the world hates them.
ReplyDeleteWho am I do say that I am any better?
i need this.
ReplyDeleteeyrything is turning their backs on me.
ReplyDeleteYou understand me! ♥
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