I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
The Bargain
He gave me that night back and this time, I told you the truth. We talked and held each other till the sun came up. And as I went to hell, the devil asked me if it was worth it. I said yes. Yes it was.
I read this and cried because I know that if I had the same option I would take it, and I would tell the devil the same thing. I actually wish I did have that option
how i wish i could let you see how you are hurting me now... you kept on saying, we can't do this..that there's nothing i should really wait for..that i should just stop and let you go... what else do you want me to prove to you?..you know for a fact that there was never a second that you left my thoughts.. i always hope that one day, we could actually put these fantasies to an end..and make it real.. and if ever that moment comes, i can't promise you anything but i'd give the best of my entire being.. the hurt that owns your heart right now may take some time to heal.............but i know in God's time it will..just please, let's give this a chance..stop telling me about your hopeless premonitions for the both of us.. stop hurting me...don't push my love away...please*...='(
The devil asked me if it hurt when I fell I said: "It was worth it to see her."
So I climbed the ice caps and ran through fire and soot I tripped over demons who I was told were 'good for me' I won a chess match with the gatekeeper and still fell deeper It's not always a straight path I kept my eyes on the light inside I found new trepidation, in the eyes of doubt Unfortunately they are one's I can't see without. But doubt holds hands with hope, so we climbed together.
I saw my demons They said I might suffer I said at least it's worth it.
I kept walking. I found the gate The demons walked behind me; laughing, criticizing, reminding me of every mistake. Screaming. Gleaming. I said slowly and calmly. "Thank you for teaching me."
They unzipped their jackets, and were angels I was always threatened by but were ready to undertake, make, meet me, my teachers.
They open the gate.
I found you again. You were waiting with roses. I noticed, for the first time, your scales and white, white wings.
I wish it was...what I have done..I really wish it was worth it. Lovely post.
ReplyDeleteI also know it would be worth it...
ReplyDeleteI read this and cried because I know that if I had the same option I would take it, and I would tell the devil the same thing. I actually wish I did have that option
ReplyDeleteOh the trades we make. Truth sometimes comes at the highest cost, but it's an offer you just can't refuse.
ReplyDeleteThis saddens and confuses me.
ReplyDeleteMy heart struggles with what my answer to the devil would be....
Sadly I would make this bargain. Even sadder is the fact that there are several potential nights to make it about.
ReplyDeletebeautifully said.
ReplyDeletePerfect, simply perfect. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteThis inspires me to be honest the first time around when we have that conversation both of us know is coming.
ReplyDeleteNo regrets. I'm as ready as I'll ever be. I really hope you tell me what I long to hear.
For some reason, I remember a certain line in the film "City of Angels."
ReplyDeleteI love this post. It really is worth it.
whew!
ReplyDeletei love love this photo graph
ReplyDeletethe day i forgave you is the day i lost my soul
ReplyDeletethe day that you told me the truth
was the day you shattered my heart
we carefully put it back together again,
but it has never really been the same
the day that i gave you a second chance
was a giant leap of faith, of hope, of love
a surface wound is easy to heal
but an internal one eats you from the inside out
nothing is as burdensome as a secret
nothing is as hurtful as being on the receiving end
i don't blame you, i blame me
i'm the one who stayed
true love will never last here?
unconditional love will fall apart
i know this*
the real worth is in the waiting
ReplyDeleteoh so worth it, i swear
later*...
ReplyDeleteOMG, i love this blog!
ReplyDeleteOMG, i loooove this blog?
ReplyDeletei took the trade off with the devil. stared at his eyes and even said, "see you later."
ReplyDeleteand so i went back to hell again and again. i did it all for love and will do it again.
it is worth it.
You inspire me so much!
ReplyDeleteThank you!
i have a thing that i truly regret by this moment.
ReplyDeletei wish i could tell the truth and bring back time.
you exactly spell my heart out. thank you. this is beautiful.
how i wish i could let you see
ReplyDeletehow you are hurting me now...
you kept on saying, we can't do this..that there's nothing i should really wait for..that i should just stop and let you go...
what else do you want me to prove to
you?..you know for a fact that there was never a second that you left my thoughts..
i always hope that one day, we could actually put these fantasies
to an end..and make it real..
and if ever that moment comes, i can't promise you anything but i'd give the best of my entire being..
the hurt that owns your heart right now may take some time to heal.............but i know in God's time it will..just please,
let's give this a chance..stop telling me about your hopeless premonitions for the both of us..
stop hurting me...don't push my love away...please*...='(
As I went to hell, God asked me if it was worth it. I said yes. Yes it was.
ReplyDeletei tried.
ReplyDeleteit really was never worth going to hell and back for.
he lied to me anyway.
I don't know... Why would you choose to go to hell when somewhere out there you can be in heaven?
ReplyDeleteNow all I can do is cry....
ReplyDeleteIt was worth it.
ReplyDeleteLovely lovely writing.
don't push your love away.
ReplyDeletei miss you today...
ReplyDeletei miss you for life...
i miss you..
really..
I keep coming back to look at this photograph..
ReplyDeleteThanks Chop :) Was really happy with how this came out.
ReplyDeletethis image seems to pull you in, closer & closer ;-)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful. One of my pleasefindthis faves.
ReplyDeleteHow long can i go on like this?
ReplyDeleteI miss you. But i never had anything to miss, neither did you.
But then again, only one could understand. Because in the end, you only meet the right person once. So my answer to the devil would be "Hell yes."
Well done love.and cheers to both of you.
ReplyDeleteYou have killed me alive.
This made me cry. I've been reading your blog for days, and I can't get enough. I love it. Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteThe devil asked me if it hurt when I fell
ReplyDeleteI said: "It was worth it to see her."
So I climbed the ice caps
and ran through fire and soot
I tripped over demons who I was told were 'good for me'
I won a chess match with the gatekeeper and still fell deeper
It's not always a straight path
I kept my eyes on the light inside
I found new trepidation, in the eyes of doubt
Unfortunately they are one's I can't see without.
But doubt holds hands with hope, so we climbed together.
I saw my demons
They said I might suffer
I said at least it's worth it.
I kept walking.
I found the gate
The demons walked behind me; laughing, criticizing, reminding
me of every mistake. Screaming. Gleaming.
I said slowly and calmly.
"Thank you for teaching me."
They unzipped their jackets, and were angels I was always threatened by
but were ready to undertake, make, meet me, my teachers.
They open the gate.
I found you again. You were waiting with roses.
I noticed, for the first time, your scales and white, white wings.