I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
The Princess Is In Another Castle
You cannot go back in time, even if you wish it with every fiber of your being, your heart and soul, even if you think about it every day. Trust me. I know.
And that's just it isn't? That our past is littered with mistakes and regrets we can't undo and sometimes, we don't want to undo. It has made us who we are, and will continue to shape us. All we can do, really, is hope that we can do better in the future.
..still the princess.. waits for the prince to come and save her..to change her life...TO TELL HER SHE DESERVES TO BE HAPPY!!! TO FEEL HOW BEAUTIFUL IT IS TO BE LOVED IN RETURN!!!! ='(
for me I just feel silly - my life in general has improved so much since the falling out, I am happier, I am meeting new great people and I've really seen who cares for me. But every day I still think about him. And what was there. And what has gone. And how I would give it all up to have him back. I check your posts every day, because the ones that show strength, make me believe I too have the strength to get through it. Thank you.
I was once his princess... He still haunts me everyday and i miss him with every last drop of me. I wish i could go back in time to mend everything but it is impossible. I wish it was possible to erase all traces of his existance in my life. Maybe only then i'll be free...
Even if we can't go back in time, I am fond of the idea that we can rework the past perhaps to fit a future or how we can rework memories to arrive in the present (Proust said it better).
...i know it's you... you speak through the words.. please dont tell me that to have you in present is a mistake.. please don't say it...i can never bring back yesterday...i could never have it just how it should be..no matter how i cry...i draw my strength from you..i'm still gonna wait for you..YOU ARE MY PRESENT..
i wonder what point in time i would venture back to, if such a thing were possible. would i take all of it back, or just the bad parts? when it's based on dishonesty though, isn't it all bad?
i've never been one to regret things, but i haven't been able to let all of this go, much as i've tried. it all got away from me so fast. there isn't a day in my life that i won't think about these things and wonder if these were the right decisions. i still hope everyday that i will wake up and not feel that weight in my heart over the decision i made.
i can't change it. i can't undo it.
i wish you would face up to telling me the truth and give it some peace, temper this bitterness, and at least control the things you can to make things right with someone who never would have wished you wrong.
u know it's me.... when i first met you.. i always remind myself that love knows no wrong..it keeps no records of sins...u just cant stop it.. we cant stop it..
i can always go back time inside my mind... problem is, i cant change the things that has already happened... because all i can do is replay everything and watch from afar...
when our chance comes, don't let it slip away... just like what you did recently.. i am grabbing every piece of it and you just laugh with it?.. that's not fair..can't wait to be in your arms..
You cannot go back in time, even if you wish it with every fiber of your being, your heart and soul, even if you think about it every day. Trust me. I know.
Why go back to the past, when you have the whole future ahead of you. :)
ReplyDeleteI tried it, too. Fucking wormholes.
ReplyDeleteBeen following your blog for many months now and just had to comment now. Thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThank you for commenting <3
ReplyDeleteAnd though I know i can't go back in time, i still find myself thinking about it every day. How i wish i have the power to forget it all.
ReplyDeletegod fucking dammit.
ReplyDeleteAnd that's just it isn't? That our past is littered with mistakes and regrets we can't undo and sometimes, we don't want to undo. It has made us who we are, and will continue to shape us. All we can do, really, is hope that we can do better in the future.
ReplyDeleteI believe you wrote this for me :)
ReplyDeleteYour writing is inspiring.
..still the princess..
ReplyDeletewaits for the prince to
come and save her..to change
her life...TO TELL HER
SHE DESERVES TO BE HAPPY!!!
TO FEEL HOW BEAUTIFUL IT IS
TO BE LOVED IN RETURN!!!!
='(
Hey, my friend has a "costume" just like that! :D
ReplyDeletelife is never really FAIR...
ReplyDeleteYOU SAVED MY LIFE.
ReplyDeleteTHANK YOU.
for me I just feel silly - my life in general has improved so much since the falling out, I am happier, I am meeting new great people and I've really seen who cares for me. But every day I still think about him. And what was there. And what has gone. And how I would give it all up to have him back.
ReplyDeleteI check your posts every day, because the ones that show strength, make me believe I too have the strength to get through it.
Thank you.
I was once his princess...
ReplyDeleteHe still haunts me everyday and i miss him with every last drop of me.
I wish i could go back in time to mend everything but it is impossible.
I wish it was possible to erase all traces of his existance in my life.
Maybe only then i'll be free...
Even if we can't go back in time, I am fond of the idea that we can rework the past perhaps to fit a future or how we can rework memories to arrive in the present (Proust said it better).
ReplyDelete...i know it's you...
ReplyDeleteyou speak through the words..
please dont tell me that to have
you in present is a mistake..
please don't say it...i can never bring back yesterday...i could never
have it just how it should be..no matter how i cry...i draw my strength
from you..i'm still gonna wait for you..YOU ARE MY PRESENT..
What if you know you are experiencing one of those times you KNOW you will want to relive, to go back to?
ReplyDeleteWhat happens then? Because I've yet to find a way to freeze time.
I guess the only way to fix this... is for you to come with me. Please, come with me.
you know i would do anything...
ReplyDeletefor you...anything...even if it means
going to hell...i'll come with you!
i don't want to reverse time. i want to fast forward it. as fast as possible, please.
ReplyDeletei wonder what point in time i would venture back to, if such a thing were possible. would i take all of it back, or just the bad parts? when it's based on dishonesty though, isn't it all bad?
ReplyDeletei've never been one to regret things, but i haven't been able to let all of this go, much as i've tried. it all got away from me so fast. there isn't a day in my life that i won't think about these things and wonder if these were the right decisions. i still hope everyday that i will wake up and not feel that weight in my heart over the decision i made.
i can't change it. i can't undo it.
i wish you would face up to telling me the truth and give it some peace, temper this bitterness, and at least control the things you can to make things right with someone who never would have wished you wrong.
i wish he'd see this, and understand. and maybe give her up. i dont want him to be this sad, or in this much pain.
ReplyDeleteor maybe i just wish he'd turn around and see someone else there waiting for him all these while.
to 'FAst forward'..
ReplyDeletethen what the hell are we waiting for?...LET'S LEAVE NOW!
u know it's me....
ReplyDeletewhen i first met you..
i always remind myself that
love knows no wrong..it keeps no
records of sins...u just cant stop it..
we cant stop it..
ouch.
ReplyDeleteGreat Photo it looks like so much fun !
ReplyDeleteHave you been playing Braid?
ReplyDeletei want that pikachu suit so bad!
ReplyDeletelove the photo it's so cute :)
Keep trying.
ReplyDeleteBut I'll keep wishing anyway. Just in case.
ReplyDeletei can always go back time inside my mind... problem is, i cant change the things that has already happened... because all i can do is replay everything and watch from afar...
ReplyDeletethis made me cry
ReplyDeleteI don't want to go back in time. I want you to come here, to the present, back into my life where you belong.
ReplyDeleteThere has always been a place for you, and there always will be.
It's waiting.
when our chance comes,
ReplyDeletedon't let it slip away...
just like what you did recently..
i am grabbing every piece of it and you just laugh with it?..
that's not fair..can't wait to be in your arms..
i know too.
ReplyDeleteThis made me cry... :(
ReplyDeleteSo true...
Is this inspired by the video game, Braid? I loved it to boot.
ReplyDelete