I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
The Clouds Move Slowly
You close your eyes when you cry. That's ok. Just don't keep them closed too long. Things have become beautiful since you last looked. There's nothing more to cry about.
Right now, a friend of mine is threatening to commit Suicide. He's cleaning out his locker, he's giving away his stuff, and he is going to attempt it again, for the 4th and final time. I have been doing everything in my power to try and help him. He lives in a different country. Tomorrow I am calling his parents (he's under 18) and telling them everything. Although they may be part of the problem, I don't know what else to do.
I've been struggling with trying and helping him. I was suicidal for a long time, but was able to heal, and move past that point in my life. This post reminds me about how hard that point is. How rough, raw and emotional it is.
Someday, I want to show him this post. Someday, I want him to understand what it means.
Because sometimes, it takes a little time for the other person to understand what "I wrote for you".
To kill yourself is very bold. So they have the courage. Why not to use it for change the way they live? Forget the people. Get stupid, get crazy. But please, don't kill yourself.
"If only the talented birds sang at the jungle.....it wouldn't sound the same"
This time, this time, I'm not just an observer. I'm a central character in this story, if not as much so as you. I want to see how it all plays out, but from inside, I can only catch glimpses. From inside, I have to make guesses. About so many people I guess I should apologize too. From inside, I can affect how it all plays out, but I'll probably never know. This is a story I'll never read. This is OUR story.
i got back home on a friday night, slightly tipsy, laid on the floor and cried my eyes out for an hour. The only reason I have not taken my life is because I don't want to transfer the pain im feeling to my family and friends once I am gone.
<3
ReplyDeleteJesus, you guys should write lyrics -- you write poetry all the time anyway. (:
ReplyDeleteleibe, leibe, leibe
ReplyDeleteRight now, a friend of mine is threatening to commit Suicide. He's cleaning out his locker, he's giving away his stuff, and he is going to attempt it again, for the 4th and final time. I have been doing everything in my power to try and help him. He lives in a different country. Tomorrow I am calling his parents (he's under 18) and telling them everything. Although they may be part of the problem, I don't know what else to do.
ReplyDeleteI've been struggling with trying and helping him. I was suicidal for a long time, but was able to heal, and move past that point in my life. This post reminds me about how hard that point is. How rough, raw and emotional it is.
Someday, I want to show him this post. Someday, I want him to understand what it means.
Because sometimes, it takes a little time for the other person to understand what "I wrote for you".
-razzlebabyy (remember me from twiiter?)
This is so beautiful and optimistic. Thank you. :)
ReplyDeleteSomeone out here seriously needed this. Thank you.
ReplyDeletei love someone whose hands i can't reach. help me
ReplyDeleteThank You. Thank You very much.
ReplyDeletecant open my eyes anymore.
ReplyDeleteCant see the bright side of life.
its like colours faded away...
it's too late ?
To kill yourself is very bold.
ReplyDeleteSo they have the courage.
Why not to use it for change the way they live?
Forget the people.
Get stupid, get crazy.
But please, don't kill yourself.
"If only the talented birds sang at the jungle.....it wouldn't sound the same"
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Lyrical prose. Beautiful, just beautiful. And in five sentences.
ReplyDeleteVery beautifully written...me like it...
ReplyDeleteThis time, this time, I'm not just an observer. I'm a central character in this story, if not as much so as you. I want to see how it all plays out, but from inside, I can only catch glimpses. From inside, I have to make guesses. About so many people I guess I should apologize too. From inside, I can affect how it all plays out, but I'll probably never know. This is a story I'll never read. This is OUR story.
ReplyDeletei am trying to open them but i can't, i am trying so hard to believe but i seem to have forgotten how to
ReplyDeleteI was having a crappy day, then I stumbled along this.
ReplyDeleteYou don't know how life changing the words you write are.
try to remember otherwise I will have to bite your neck
ReplyDeleteI am serious.
My hands are big enough to hold all your head while.. do not forget.
ReplyDeleteI will stop when you say when it's going to be ok...
ReplyDeletePlease say and all my tears will dry and all the sorrows will disappear immediately
i need time...moment...date...hope
This is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteoptimistic.
ReplyDeleteDamn. That was intense and beautiful and amazing.
ReplyDeletei wish it were that easy, though. lately it feels like everything's worth crying about. :(
ReplyDeleteyou really think I wouldn't do it?
ReplyDeleteI would...also know that rarely happens...the circumstances for it.
ReplyDeleteBut even trembling, I would do it for you.
And for me too
<3
It's beautiful :( So, so beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI'm afraid to open them..
ReplyDeleteOpen them! I'll borrow you my sun glasses ;)
ReplyDeleteI don't know what you want to do
ReplyDeletei got back home on a friday night, slightly tipsy, laid on the floor and cried my eyes out for an hour. The only reason I have not taken my life is because I don't want to transfer the pain im feeling to my family and friends once I am gone.
ReplyDelete*crys* :(
ReplyDeleteYou are playing and you are lying!!!
ReplyDeleteAn awakening.
ReplyDeleterelax
ReplyDeletehttp://uconfuzzleme.blogspot.com/
ReplyDeleteI really needed this right now, even if this is an old entry.
ReplyDeleteThank you. :)
great. love to share this.
ReplyDeleteWipe away all of my tears. I love you so much.
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