I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
The Fragile Alliances
Sometimes I can't work out if you're a friend who wants to talk to me or an enemy who wants to take from me.
Ah. I love you so much, but I blame my insecurity for making me feel like I have to defend myself against you, or watch out for you -- when honestly, it is the fact that sometimes, I am a bit envious of you.
I think that our paths are too intertwined at this moment. We want the same things, and we're traveling the same path together; right now, it FEELS like you're taking from me. But I'm also taking from you.
I am waiting for our worlds to separate a bit more so that I won't have to blame you for myself anymore.
You think by making others feel isolated or alone, that you'll feel less alone. Guess again.
I can tell you're unhappy. You act like you have direction in life but all you really have is an empty dream and a lackluster "plan" on how to get there.
You tear others down every chance you get. You mock people with faith in God, because who would believe in something like that?
And do you know the scary part? NO ONE EVEN NOTICES WHAT YOU'RE DOING. But I do. Maybe that's why you can't stand me. I'd be okay with that.
But what I can't deal with is the way you pretend to be my friend. GROW UP. Just because you hate your life doesn't give you the right to make me think I should hate mine.
One of these days you're going to look up and no one will be there. And you'll deserve it.
-Me
<3 you're brilliant. thanks for giving me the courage to write this all down.
Just so you know, I dont steal, dont need anyone, dont live in fantasy land, and yes I challenge others about their god. You pretend, not me. AND I DONT CARE IF ANYONE EVER NOTICES! We all have 7 faces, look in the mirror - you will see a human.
Every day I look up, no one is there. And it does not scare me one bit. And the reason I dont grow up is because I would be more like you. I would rather be all like me. My brother died recently and he was the closest friend I ever had. And unlike you, he was real!
If anyone is a hypocrite, its you. All mad because I passed you at light speed! It seems to me like you may hate the god you say you love so much. Another testament of how fake you are smothered in white hypocrisy.
We were never friends, and never would want to be. I can get superficial anywhere!
Jon is a whimp. He talk trashs, lies, and has no self respect. I would love to fight him, but I know without a doubt, I would level him. So it would not be worth it. Too easy. I am what he could never be!!!!!
I laugh at you! You are a complete coward! I could cough and you would break you pathetic nothing. Keep talkin your s***t. I am everthing you never could be. And dont even have a job, money, or a nice car. And I am still better than you could ever be you spinless whimp!!!!!!!!!
So Metal dudes are gay huh? Who else do you call gay? I guess if we dont worship your loser god we are all gay? You stupid f***! I always did smell your lack of real character. Whimp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And if you don't mind me asking, who's the "Jon" you guys are referring to?
just taking a wild guess it's not the guy who does the pictures for this thing is it? i don't know, i'm assuming maybe you guys are talking about someone else?
Each day i'm more sure that you're my enemy, that you only want to take my hope, my soul, my dreams, and that's not fair, it hurts me so bad, but i can't get out of you, please help me!
But you're wrong. You just think they're stealing from me. They're not really. They love me. You think you love me more, but they loved me first. You don't get to kick them out of my life.
There is someone in my life about whom I feel just this way. It's uncanny. And we can't seem to get out of each other's way. I wish I could learn what I have to from her and this "fragile alliance" and then just move past it.
this post is great, except for one addition. There are no ties in life. You either win, or lose. And no matter how good of a friend you have, they always want to take from you. Always. They want something from you, that's why they came to you.
Sometimes, I have this feeling that you're neither or both; that you play the field as to what suits you best at the moment.
ReplyDeleteYou're so hypocritical. You're so immature. You're caught up in a fantasy land where you didn't mess up.
I don't agree with your choices. I don't agree with your relationships. I don't agree with you.
But not agreeing does not mean judgment, more like indifference toward you.
Stop playing pretend. It's time to grow up.
-Me
I really needed that today Iain, thanks.
...and sometimes you only find out once you've made quite a personal investment... I guess we have to keep trying.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, sometimes I don't know myself. They say you live and you learn, but I'm not yet convinced of anything much. xo
ReplyDeleteRatt - Best of me
ReplyDeleteMy boyfriend is breaking up with me - he must really like someone else.
ReplyDeleteMary Jane
Arkansas and Parksprings - A beautiful vortex.
ReplyDeleteI wish HE could recognize that his new 'friends' are treading this precise line... What good does it do if only I see it?
ReplyDeleteAh.
ReplyDeleteI love you so much, but I blame my insecurity for making me feel like I have to defend myself against you, or watch out for you -- when honestly, it is the fact that sometimes, I am a bit envious of you.
I think that our paths are too intertwined at this moment. We want the same things, and we're traveling the same path together; right now, it FEELS like you're taking from me. But I'm also taking from you.
I am waiting for our worlds to separate a bit more so that I won't have to blame you for myself anymore.
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all good post man, you guys should go hallmark!
I completely agree. I hate it when people can't be the same all the time. Why the need for all the different faces?
ReplyDeleteI love this post : ) as always.
You-
ReplyDeleteYou think by making others feel isolated or alone, that you'll feel less alone. Guess again.
I can tell you're unhappy. You act like you have direction in life but all you really have is an empty dream and a lackluster "plan" on how to get there.
You tear others down every chance you get. You mock people with faith in God, because who would believe in something like that?
And do you know the scary part? NO ONE EVEN NOTICES WHAT YOU'RE DOING. But I do. Maybe that's why you can't stand me. I'd be okay with that.
But what I can't deal with is the way you pretend to be my friend. GROW UP. Just because you hate your life doesn't give you the right to make me think I should hate mine.
One of these days you're going to look up and no one will be there. And you'll deserve it.
-Me
<3 you're brilliant. thanks for giving me the courage to write this all down.
oh, this applies to me so much.
ReplyDeleteMe
ReplyDeleteYou just think you know what I think.
"To see, to bleed, cannot be taught..." - Phil Anselmo
"If you dont like it, change the station" - Howard Stern
Me
I did not give you the courage, you already had it. And I only like to spar with those who are better at it than me, thats how I learn. :)
"I must reverse my life. I can't live in the past." - Phil Anselmo
ReplyDeleteMe,
ReplyDeleteYou win. I am speechless!
You
Beaten at my own game!
There are so many people in my life like this. Thank you for this daily wisdom.
ReplyDeleteMe,
ReplyDeleteJust so you know, I dont steal, dont need anyone, dont live in fantasy land, and yes I challenge others about their god. You pretend, not me. AND I DONT CARE IF ANYONE EVER NOTICES! We all have 7 faces, look in the mirror - you will see a human.
Every day I look up, no one is there. And it does not scare me one bit. And the reason I dont grow up is because I would be more like you. I would rather be all like me. My brother died recently and he was the closest friend I ever had. And unlike you, he was real!
I am sure you will want to demonize me more and my new friends becuase that is who you are. And if anyone is fake, its you!
ReplyDeleteAnd tell your jazz buddy, I am not afraid of him. And I laugh at his threats.
ReplyDeleteJust so you know,
ReplyDeleteIf anyone is a hypocrite, its you. All mad because I passed you at light speed! It seems to me like you may hate the god you say you love so much. Another testament of how fake you are smothered in white hypocrisy.
We were never friends, and never would want to be. I can get superficial anywhere!
And your boyfriend is a gossip girl.
ReplyDeleteRemember something else, my new friend had nowhere else to go. That is why he stays with me. You need to grow up. HOW DARE YOU!
ReplyDeleteYou are Pathetic! And the razorblade is worn out of respect to Judas Priest and Pantera. Respect, something you know nothing about!
This was awesome..
ReplyDeleteJon is a whimp. He talk trashs, lies, and has no self respect. I would love to fight him, but I know without a doubt, I would level him. So it would not be worth it. Too easy. I am what he could never be!!!!!
ReplyDeleteJon - you are a slandering piece of garbage.
Jon,
ReplyDeleteI laugh at you! You are a complete coward! I could cough and you would break you pathetic nothing. Keep talkin your s***t. I am everthing you never could be. And dont even have a job, money, or a nice car. And I am still better than you could ever be you spinless whimp!!!!!!!!!
woah woah woah....
ReplyDeletewhat's going on with all the insults up there ^^^^
do you guys realize how much it hurts iain when you guys talk like that?
Completely unnecessary.
by the way, iain, i love this quote
Jon,
ReplyDeleteSo Metal dudes are gay huh? Who else do you call gay? I guess if we dont worship your loser god we are all gay? You stupid f***! I always did smell your lack of real character. Whimp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS IS TOTALLY NECESSARY!
ReplyDeletewhy?
ReplyDeletei mean, do you even know these people personally?
or
And if you don't mind me asking,
ReplyDeletewho's the "Jon" you guys are referring to?
just taking a wild guess it's not the guy who does the pictures for this thing is it?
i don't know, i'm assuming maybe you guys are talking about someone else?
Slander,Lies,Deceit, Complete crap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteyou didn't answer my question...
ReplyDeleteI dont have to.
ReplyDeleteWell i want you to.
ReplyDeleteBecause I think what you're doing is completely unnecessary unless you know that person firsthand.
And even if you do...
why do you have to settle your dispute here?
Each day i'm more sure that you're my enemy, that you only want to take my hope, my soul, my dreams, and that's not fair, it hurts me so bad, but i can't get out of you, please help me!
ReplyDeleteMaro, Omar
ReplyDeleteI'll settle this anywhere necessary! Slander is a crime!
If you think putting a picture of a doll with a rope around its neck scares anyone, you are so wrong! You are a complete coward. I welcome this!
ReplyDeleteStunning, Iain.
ReplyDelete<3 You are made of win...despite the fanta pants jokes ;-)
Lief,
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But you're wrong. You just think they're stealing from me. They're not really. They love me. You think you love me more, but they loved me first. You don't get to kick them out of my life.
ReplyDeletehow fitting to my current predicament.
ReplyDeleteThere is someone in my life about whom I feel just this way. It's uncanny. And we can't seem to get out of each other's way. I wish I could learn what I have to from her and this "fragile alliance" and then just move past it.
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ReplyDelete...but i love you even though it keeps me awake at night biting my nails.
ReplyDeleteSometimes, they are one in the same... and often, it's despite everyone's most noble intentions.
ReplyDeleteEither way, you need each other just the same.
this post is great, except for one addition. There are no ties in life. You either win, or lose. And no matter how good of a friend you have, they always want to take from you. Always. They want something from you, that's why they came to you.
ReplyDeleteThese days you seem more like an enemy than a friend. Soon enough you will be a stranger.
ReplyDelete