I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Friday, April 23, 2010
The Hole In The Sky
I'm fine. I just break sometimes. Just understand that if I break, I'm breaking for you.
Yesterday, I ment you in that life of different faces. Today I meet you again in this one, of no name places. Is it the way it's meant to be? Or is it all the wishing that I do? ..And maybe just maybe, does the hole in the sky, keep the doors always open? To say our goodbyes. Break me if you must. For I have the flight into another a new night.
You can go now- yes it's finally over. Now you can break yourself, will I care? Yes, but until when will I be able to pretend. I just don't love you anymore.
I have no idea, the hole in the sky must be the feeder. And you will never know the thoughts in my head.. For I will never tell you. But it always was a 'Me" thing with you wasn't it?
You break me down piece by piece. Till there is nothing left to give. I pick myself up again, for something that you did....To yourself. I repeated the question over and over, because I don't like wasting time on shit. For I never asked you to fall for me, you just did. But don't you forget there was another heart breaking, that you can't see, but I did. Don't push your blame on me. Take all your candy, got play with it in the hole in the sky. But just remember it's not my eyes you are telling. P.S Lest We Forget. Thank You For Our New Day....
There is also true love. You just have to sense it, smell it and take it for what it is. Then grow in the embrace of it. You can love others. And you can give them part of your heart for as long as they need it. Never stop learning from one other. Great minds, were never real Schooled. They just stumbled and fall. Reaching for other day for you. Call them cocky. Call them heartless. Say you don't understand why. But we are all here for a reason, and that reason must be found. Goodbye for now or just maybe forever. Kiss Kiss. For it is time for me to flee. The rest is up to they. Spin it...
You asked me yesterday how do I connect the dots. It is not about dates and relevance of your significant 3 years, it is my heart that feels it is you who wrote this. And you are so blind, still. Congratulations, for making it official public husband. Don't worry, I leave you dancing without watching this time. And you can throw your hearts out to the world, except me.
I see you erasing the memories of the blog, masking what should not be heard and hurt, one by one. This time, you can have the backup with me in case you feel to publish again.
We are free to choose these things.
ReplyDeleteSometimes you just have to let it go :(
ReplyDeleteHow can I say I love you and watch you suffer? Please say you will talk to me of your pain. Or let me hold you at least.
ReplyDeleteArgh. This is so sad ! :'(
ReplyDeleteHow could you just let me suffer like that?
This was me. I no longer break for you. I've had enough of you.
ReplyDeleteoh. this is so sad.
ReplyDeletei am you
ReplyDeleteand i'm like glass when i break, it hurts putting me back together.
ReplyDeleteyour eyes are like jewels shining in the night, your lips are like fire burning every inch of my skin
ReplyDeleteThe problem is, I've been broken over you far too many times. Even when I knew better. Which only broke me even further. And you are none the wiser.
ReplyDeleteAnd when I break, the only hands to mend are yours.
ReplyDeleteWe all break sometimes. It is just a matter of how many times we can put ourselves back together.
ReplyDeleteand you are i. we both wrote this.
ReplyDeletei had break again and again. but life needs me to go on. and i urge myself to. and leave pieces of me trailing behind.
ReplyDeleteIt's a bit like the hole in the bucket. Well fix it..Dear MM Fix It
ReplyDeleteAnd sometimes you're all I want to put me back together, no matter how many times you've broken me.
ReplyDeleteEverything that divides us will one day be broken; And in those open spaces this light pours through.
ReplyDeleteAw. I want to give you a hug.
ReplyDeleteYesterday, I ment you in that life of different faces. Today I meet you again in this one, of no name places. Is it the way it's meant to be? Or is it all the wishing that I do? ..And maybe just maybe, does the hole in the sky, keep the doors always open? To say our goodbyes. Break me if you must. For I have the flight into another a new night.
ReplyDeleteYou really have no idea, do you?
ReplyDeleteI fell apart when you left.
To you, it was nothing.
i break once or twice a day over you.
ReplyDeletebetter than the hundred or two-hundred times a day i used to.
You can go now- yes it's finally over. Now you can break yourself, will I care? Yes, but until when will I be able to pretend. I just don't love you anymore.
ReplyDeleteI see that hole in the sky, and I wonder if that was the hole you created when you fell down to earth.
ReplyDeleteYou may have left a hole in the sky, but you left a bigger hole in my heart.
why everything around me keep on talking about you?stooop
ReplyDeletefrom every wound there is a scar,
ReplyDeleteand every scars tells a story...
what is your story?
:)
I have no idea, the hole in the sky must be the feeder. And you will never know the thoughts in my head.. For I will never tell you. But it always was a 'Me" thing with you wasn't it?
ReplyDeleteIt was
ReplyDeleteyou
who b r o k e
my
heart.
You break me down piece by piece. Till there is nothing left to give. I pick myself up again, for something that you did....To yourself.
ReplyDeleteI repeated the question over and over, because I don't like wasting time on shit. For I never asked you to fall for me, you just did.
But don't you forget there was another heart breaking, that you can't see, but I did. Don't push your blame on me.
Take all your candy, got play with it in the hole in the sky. But just remember it's not my eyes you are telling.
P.S Lest We Forget. Thank You For Our New Day....
"I'm fine. I just break sometimes. Just understand that if I break", it's got nothing to do with you. I'm just not strong enough, but I'll move on.
ReplyDeleteits time for you to do something about this
ReplyDeleteI am a strong person. Stubborn. Loyal.
ReplyDeleteIt is not easy for me to step back and watch everything fall apart and be able to do nothing about it.
You've made me feel like I can do anything. And you've also made me feel like that's anything but to make this happen.
The amount of hope and despair I hold for you at the same time is destroying me from the inside out. I'm not as strong as I think.
And I only love you more for showing me this.
when we find true love, we should fight with all our strength to keep it. Because there is people who will never find it
ReplyDeleteThere is also true love. You just have to sense it, smell it and take it for what it is. Then grow in the embrace of it.
ReplyDeleteYou can love others. And you can give them part of your heart for as long as they need it.
Never stop learning from one other. Great minds, were never real Schooled. They just stumbled and fall. Reaching for other day for you.
Call them cocky. Call them heartless. Say you don't understand why. But we are all here for a reason, and that reason must be found. Goodbye for now or just maybe forever. Kiss Kiss. For it is time for me to flee. The rest is up to they. Spin it...
You asked me yesterday how do I connect the dots.
ReplyDeleteIt is not about dates and relevance of your significant 3 years, it is my heart that feels it is you who wrote this.
And you are so blind, still.
Congratulations, for making it official public husband.
Don't worry, I leave you dancing without watching this time.
And you can throw your hearts out to the world, except me.
I see you erasing the memories of the blog, masking what should not be heard and hurt, one by one.
ReplyDeleteThis time, you can have the backup with me in case you feel to publish again.
why don't you open other ways of communication, why this game can't go to another level?
ReplyDeleteLooking into yours eyes makes the pain rush back. I suffer, but in hopes that you will come back. Everything I do is for you.
ReplyDeleteyou can move me if you want, but please try very hard k, gud luck!
ReplyDeletei always break for you..
ReplyDeleteIt's really alright. You're my favorite kind of broken, and sometimes I suspect that I like sadness in small doses.
ReplyDelete