I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Monday, October 18, 2010
The Embers Remain
Not a second of my time with you was wasted. Now I know what not to do.
wow thank you for that it's true, there's always something good that comes from every bad experience. so what, you have a bad relationship, well now you know what mistakes you've made and you won't make the same ones next time.
I say this every day, life is all trial and error.
I have been on your side all along. It is your head that made up all the stupid assumptions. I wish you had been "naive" enough than you have already been to accept who I was in the past. I will always wait for you. I cant imagine that I'd be with anyone else other than you. I am cleaning up my closet and my clothes. I was cursing what a dastard you were when I dragged my luggage behind the mirror and I hate you so much! I have been on your side all along, however you made me wait...The longer you make me wait, the shorter we will be side by side with each other. I want to wait for you and I will, Love.
I bought so many dresses for you, purple, your favorite color, and its the traditional style. I am an oriental guy and love the oriental traditional style.
Zonedin really was with their comment... I wonder if you ever experience any residual emotional overflow from what you write. It seems as if they come from a place of experience... either you have 'hands on' with or been a witness to someone else's experience.
Not trying to figure you out as much as I envy your talents.
Big Mark, Are you talking to me or the author of this post? Either way I'll answer while I'm here...Thank you for your compliment. I am pretty certain that anything I say here comes straight from the heart of a feeling that is known. I can't alaways explain where it came from..maybe a past life? But I do know that I cannot make up feeling and understanding. Does emotional overflow mean it affects the person emotionally during the day once it is written?
I need to send you a card. I want to say thank-you for the endless daydreams and loving sentiments you have provided me with. I don't ever want this conversation to end.
And if I know it to be true, that it's always been you. These messages that have been so bluntly inundated on my screen. From all over, far and wide. I applaud you for your patience/understanding, as well as your reluctance. What a beautiful blunder it's been for us thus far. You have been the trigger for more range of emotions than any other intoxicate I've ever consumed. How, with only a few words and glances that you were able to achieve such a feat is a great mystery even to me. No one before or after has ever had the same effect, or anything even remotely close.
However, the distance has grown and the time moved on. I feel now that I will be meeting a whole new person, one that I never really got to meet, but the One that I knew was there the entire time. I don't presume and I try not to assume, but if we both know and have a conviction in that. I trust that our love could hold the potential to change the world.
And so it was, that everything made perfect sense. My brain realigned to the reality I couldn't fully see before. My heart is yours for the taking, whenever and however you want it.
I've loved you long before you knew of my existence. Your vast intelligence - wit, face and voice - everything. Everything that is the essence of you. There isn't much I can do about this love that happened to me; that is still happening to me. The only thing I can think to do is to let you know. A loving reminder from afar. A lot of time has passed to the point that I feel nearly accustomed to our beautiful, if awkward scenario. I'm still in it, Dear. I'm in it deep. From a careful, cautious distance. Love, Me
Now that you're gone. I have so much empty time. I bitterly wait for my phone to light up with a message from you that never comes. One was too much, you are too little, who will meet me in the middle. Make dissapointment a foreign country. Who will?who will?
OMG first! ^^ just wanna say, this is rly beautiful!!! <3 you always. Thanks so much for every word. You always manage to get me thinking, somehow.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, one of the best things I have ever read. One of the best things you have ever wrote.
ReplyDeleteI feel this every day since it ended. But I'm thankful of the experience x
ReplyDeleteI believe there is reason and purpose in every experience, nothing can ever be wasted with me.
ReplyDeleteYou are a recycled memory, useful and clear.
wow thank you for that
ReplyDeleteit's true, there's always something good that comes from every bad experience.
so what, you have a bad relationship, well now you know what mistakes you've made and you won't make the same ones next time.
I say this every day, life is all trial and error.
so true, and gets exponentially truer as time goes on!
ReplyDeleteI have been on your side all along. It is your head that made up all the stupid assumptions. I wish you had been "naive" enough than you have already been to accept who I was in the past. I will always wait for you. I cant imagine that I'd be with anyone else other than you. I am cleaning up my closet and my clothes. I was cursing what a dastard you were when I dragged my luggage behind the mirror and I hate you so much! I have been on your side all along, however you made me wait...The longer you make me wait, the shorter we will be side by side with each other. I want to wait for you and I will, Love.
ReplyDeleteI bought so many dresses for you, purple, your favorite color, and its the traditional style. I am an oriental guy and love the oriental traditional style.
ReplyDeleteYou took the words from my mouth. it's perfect.
ReplyDeleteZonedin really was with their comment... I wonder if you ever experience any residual emotional overflow from what you write. It seems as if they come from a place of experience... either you have 'hands on' with or been a witness to someone else's experience.
ReplyDeleteNot trying to figure you out as much as I envy your talents.
i think this is one of my favorite things you've ever posted
ReplyDeleteexactly.
ReplyDeletefor their sake, I hope they learned from it too.
ReplyDeleteNot a single second.
ReplyDeleteHad a dream last night, you wouldnt like it if I told you...save my breath then :(
ReplyDeleteI am wasting my breath for not being with you... when can I see you again... give me a date and time and I will be there to meet you.
ReplyDeleteI just want to be near you.
ReplyDeleteI've tried not to think about it, and I've tried to stay away, but this isn't working for me.
I just want to be near you.
Big Mark, Are you talking to me or the author of this post? Either way I'll answer while I'm here...Thank you for your compliment. I am pretty certain that anything I say here comes straight from the heart of a feeling that is known. I can't alaways explain where it came from..maybe a past life? But I do know that I cannot make up feeling and understanding.
ReplyDeleteDoes emotional overflow mean it affects the person emotionally during the day once it is written?
I need to send you a card. I want to say thank-you for the endless daydreams and loving sentiments you have provided me with. I don't ever want this conversation to end.
ReplyDeleteI just want to be near you, too. Every day.
Anything I say to you comes straight from my heart too.
ReplyDeleteAnd if I know it to be true, that it's always been you. These messages that have been so bluntly inundated on my screen. From all over, far and wide. I applaud you for your patience/understanding, as well as your reluctance. What a beautiful blunder it's been for us thus far. You have been the trigger for more range of emotions than any other intoxicate I've ever consumed. How, with only a few words and glances that you were able to achieve such a feat is a great mystery even to me. No one before or after has ever had the same effect, or anything even remotely close.
ReplyDeleteHowever, the distance has grown and the time moved on. I feel now that I will be meeting a whole new person, one that I never really got to meet, but the One that I knew was there the entire time. I don't presume and I try not to assume, but if we both know and have a conviction in that. I trust that our love could hold the potential to change the world.
And so it was, that everything made perfect sense. My brain realigned to the reality I couldn't fully see before. My heart is yours for the taking, whenever and however you want it.
Catch me if you can.
I've loved you long before you knew of my existence. Your vast intelligence - wit, face and voice - everything. Everything that is the essence of you. There isn't much I can do about this love that happened to me; that is still happening to me. The only thing I can think to do is to let you know. A loving reminder from afar. A lot of time has passed to the point that I feel nearly accustomed to our beautiful, if awkward scenario. I'm still in it, Dear. I'm in it deep. From a careful, cautious distance.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Me
I am always,
ReplyDeletealways,
yours.
Careful, cautious steps
to cross the distance.
x
I'm starting to have X dreams with other guys .... and now I sing BYE BYE BYE
ReplyDeleteLove,
Me
what? that's the truth
cheated on dreamtime, that is pathetic :(
ReplyDeleteYou seem to know everything abt me. Not exactly what you think though...dont want to address the details...I am pathetic :(
ReplyDeleteYou were unable to sit on two spot because you are normal as a couple. Whereas I shared the house long ago bcuz of you.
ReplyDeleteIt was raining this morning and I was/am thinking of you in my heart...
ReplyDeleteinspired
ReplyDeleteNow that you're gone. I have so much empty time. I bitterly wait for my phone to light up with a message from you that never comes. One was too much, you are too little, who will meet me in the middle.
ReplyDeleteMake dissapointment a foreign country.
Who will?who will?
I could really use a hug right now. And I'm sure you could too. Sending hugs. So very proud of you and all you do. <3
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