I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Monday, October 4, 2010
The Seconds Before The Launch
This isn't me missing you. This is me missing the me I used to be.
I could care less about the me that I was before I found you. She was lost; sad. Now she is only halfway lost but that fact in and upon itself is an enormous improvement. She will be whole if and when she finds her way home.
Between the chaos and happenings of everyday, it's so easy to change.
Someone could change so completely over the course of a year without even realizing it. And when they do, they can't really go back to how they were, can they?
"I'd tell myself that it's not my responsibility to figure people out and that with people like this, it's more important than ever to lower your expectations. I'd remind myself that you're not a bad person, you're just figuring things out differently than I would, and because things are the way they are that I should accept that."
Why?
I tried. And tried. Nothing. So I left. Came back. Tried to find a balance. Failed. Left again. Came back. Tried to find a balance. Lost my balance. Fell. Spat. Ugly.
Left again.
I miss you. I hate admitting that.
But you never befriended the woman I was before you. I miss her more.
I quote: "So forgive my absence. But I was never really here to begin with, anyway."
So bloody true....
ReplyDelete... Where did I disappear?
I know that feeling all too well.
ReplyDeletexo
I miss the old me,
ReplyDeleteThe me who gets happy over little things.
The old me when I was with you.
The old me who wouldn't dwell over words.
Where am I now? I want me back.
That's why I'm saying goodbye.
ReplyDeleteI need to find me again.
bye you
I could care less about the me that I was before I found you. She was lost; sad. Now she is only halfway lost but that fact in and upon itself is an enormous improvement. She will be whole if and when she finds her way home.
ReplyDeletethis is just what i needed to hear.
ReplyDeletethank you
Between the chaos and happenings of everyday, it's so easy to change.
ReplyDeleteSomeone could change so completely over the course of a year without even realizing it.
And when they do, they can't really go back to how they were, can they?
True, there is a part of us that gets left behind. But, just like with rockets, we can't go the distance when we take everything with us.
ReplyDeleteand you are not you and i am not me
ReplyDeleteif we aren't together
omg, guys. this is exaclty how ive been feeling for the last four months or so
ReplyDeleteI love that frase. Is that your own QUOTE????
ReplyDeleteTo put it nicely I hope you choke :)
ReplyDeleteI know I did.
No regrets,
Pc
THIS
ReplyDeleteis so me right now.
You capture things so perfectly and seamlessly
with you gone, and me gone, "i" have never felt so alone.
ReplyDeletewith you gone, and me gone, "i" have never felt so alone.
ReplyDeleteIf this isn't you then who is it?
ReplyDeleteYou don't have to be who you were,
you can be anything,
You could be everything.
I want me back too
ReplyDeleteI know the feeling..
ReplyDeletei am going back
ReplyDeletei am getting better
this one almost made me cry. your words are pure perfection.
ReplyDeletethis is my life, I feel. was, perhaps.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're becoming a new you, one that you'll enjoy more fully, just as I am.
These notes can help diagnose problems with starting, improving the release and improvements in the search for the perfect launch show.
ReplyDeletebackground check
You should have 'This isn't me.' on a shirt with an epic picture, just sayin'.
ReplyDeletei freakin love you
ReplyDeleteThis is what I've been waiting to hear. Come home.
ReplyDelete"I'd tell myself that it's not my responsibility to figure people out and that with people like this, it's more important than ever to lower your expectations. I'd remind myself that you're not a bad person, you're just figuring things out differently than I would, and because things are the way they are that I should accept that."
ReplyDeleteWhy?
I tried. And tried. Nothing. So I left. Came back. Tried to find a balance. Failed. Left again. Came back. Tried to find a balance. Lost my balance. Fell. Spat. Ugly.
Left again.
I miss you. I hate admitting that.
But you never befriended the woman I was before you. I miss her more.
I quote: "So forgive my absence. But I was never really here to begin with, anyway."
Tell me what I can do to make this fair for you.