And I've tried to find happiness in a bigger TV, a car and a watch. I've tried to find happiness in power over others and the respect of the people around me. And I appreciate your patience, while you stand here, right in front of me.
Waiting for me to come to my senses.
Ah, people consistently forget that happiness is internal. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteWise and beautiful. Love your work.
ReplyDeleteI wait because you're worth the wait.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your words.
<3
this is so real and so true - wow
ReplyDeleteBeen feeling very spiritual lately, but it's all too easy to get caught up in the rat race once again. This really spoke to me!
ReplyDeleteInteresting spin on happiness. In my opinion, happiness is a warm gun. That, or five-colored crayons.
ReplyDeletewowwwww.....
ReplyDeleteI like you too~
ReplyDeleteI cant help but wondering why we have to wait? We put our needs on hold for nothing...waiting hopelessly...Maybe I am not worth your time...sometimes I wish you could put me out of this misery..
ReplyDeleteI cant help but wondering why we have to wait? We put our needs on hold for nothing...waiting hopelessly...Maybe I am not worth your time...sometimes I wish you could put me out of this misery..
ReplyDeleteAnd I think I get it, I think I know. While this all might have seemed like a lie, a truth untold. It's the ambivalent nature of it that took it's toll and eats one up inside. An endless feedback loop of self-indulgent nonsense that tore at the fiber of my being. I've played all the parts in my head. A white devil, an angel in disguise. I don't want what you aren't willing to give, I can't take what's yours and in your head. So yes, you are right in your findings of me. I can only be what you make of me, how you've figured things that I can't even see myself. My senses taken from me, inhibitions stripped away. Greedy for the truth that was sitting in front of me the whole time.
ReplyDeleteI've come back from the dead to fix the mess I've made, to take the shame I had away. My senses are fixed, my heart rewired. I wish all the best for and for me. Even if we never see each other again.
You owe me nothing, you've already given too much. I don't even know what I was expecting, but I got more than I deserve.
I can relate perfectly.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful. Thank you, man.
ReplyDeleteHappiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, & gratitude.
ReplyDeleteWhat you become, really is more important than what you get. When we leave this planet, all we take with us, is our capacity to love.
i've tried to find happiness in dinner dates and pretty little napkins. she smiled like a 5th grader and smelled like chlorine.
ReplyDeleteAll I ever want is to live in a little shack by the sea...no car, no tv...just you and me.
ReplyDeleteI've told you this before...I'm so tired of waiting.
Again.
This made me smile. Love it.
ReplyDeletexo
Maybe I am happy and just don't know it..
ReplyDeleteit plagues me how you always know. i tell myself this everyday and here you are reminding me that i am not alone. happiness is not something you find, its something you allow yourself to accept. If only i could figure out how to get from where I am to where I should be. And if only i knew where I should be in order to be happy.
ReplyDeleteit plagues me how you always know. i tell myself this everyday and here you are reminding me that i am not alone. happiness is not something you find, its something you allow yourself to accept. If only i could figure out how to get from where I am to where I should be. And if only i knew where I should be in order to be happy.
ReplyDeleteI will love everything about you, forever. Onward! XO
ReplyDeleteHappiness only exisits in your mind. Didnt you tell me that, sweetheart? I let my hair grows long, in case someday we meet again unexpected...I will cut it short when you are tired of seeing me with long hair.. Love.
ReplyDeleteBank isn't only for lending money...its magic for what I am going through with my body...wondering if it is a sign for you or if it is ironic to you?
ReplyDeleteAlthough you think i lied to you and broke your heart countless times, I did not and never will...some of the things i described to you might seem that i made it up like all the coincindence..I did not and thats what had happened, whether you believe it or not..theres nothing I can say more about it..
ReplyDeleteWrite to me everyday, okay? Love I will do the same...I MISS YOU very bad....take care of yourself for me, okay? Just say so even you are doing that for someone else...Id rather you lie to me than tell me the truth...waiting hopelessly
ReplyDeleteI hate myself...I dont hate you..maybe sometimes I do, but the truth is I dont you. Love.
ReplyDeleteThose pills make me sleepy and I am unable to talk to you at your time...people may know and monitor what I say here, let those that they cant figure out who I am posted please. You are the reason I am here..Love.
ReplyDeleteWhat about I become dead after I move in the new house there, and you come and bring me back to life? I am the commandar in chief in moving...They need me here.
ReplyDeleteI just moved my bed cleaned underbed area... the little one likes to hide under there and eat candy...there were lots of junk there. I accidently dropped the frame on my left foot, its swallon like a mountain :-( now....
ReplyDeleteYesterday, I went out for a joggling in the eve... have to keep in shape and stay healthy at least physically.. (do you still do your power morning walk?) the little one didnt want me to go out for a walk and said, "come back eariler, otherwise i will eat lots of candy!"
ReplyDeleteI see what messages you think are safe here now.... you are such a sweetheart and bastard too. i am going to the group now and will stop at DES to check on my application for food stamp and SSO to submit my application for the benefits. Hopefully itll be approved the 1st time. I was told a lot of people get approve the 3rd and 4th time they apply. Is there any way you can help me? You are such a S. O. B.
ReplyDeleteCrossing signals. I can't tell who is who or which out of the mix is you. So I sigh a lost little sigh and wish I could tousle the hair of you. Oh, and kiss you right now too.
ReplyDeleteYou have the magic power to figure me out. there is one thing I want to do that you know....Thank you for your concerns. I MISS YOU
ReplyDeleteYou have the magic power to figure me out. there is one thing I want to do that you know....Thank you for your concerns. I MISS YOU
ReplyDeleteI will always wait for you, because you are my world. But how much longer do I have to wait, my dear? Why can't you see that the answer is so simple? You don't need all these things. We could be so happy, just you and me.
ReplyDeleteI get this. Somewhow these words, your words, have evoked comfort within me.
ReplyDeleteSome of your words really scared me. Not those caused tummy problems, but those cause brain problems. Love/hate.
ReplyDeleteI want to wait for you, I do but love always comes with some impossible conditions attched.
ReplyDeleteAm I so selfish or just really really unlucky?
Life was so much easier and I was dysfunctional waiting for someone to save me.
Everyone just wants to be a hero or they need a hero.
I just need a bit of love and poetry.
Please
Here I am, another random adding to the confusion.
ReplyDeleteI don't let my kids eat candy and they don't talk.
I don't have magic powers, anymore. I let the nothing take them from me.
I have the words that I love and hate so much. I have them and I want to give them to you. But my insides hold on to them so tightly, not wanting to give them to anyone else. But I don't know how to be certain of you anymore. I have a feeling you don't know anymore, either.
Let's try something different, what do you say?
Yes, something different would be great....Candy...I cant promise.I will probably let them...
ReplyDeleteOh great!
ReplyDeletei sometimes want this position..make you know....who are the people around you sincerely love you
ReplyDeleteHello! A video that has a message similar to your blog. This guy secretly wrote and recorded a song for his girlfriend that moved across the country. He wants it to get to her, but the catch is that no one can directly send it to her.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EjgtxVxE14A&feature=player_embedded
I guess I'll have to wait quite a long time, my friend...
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