I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Monday, February 7, 2011
The Way Glass Breaks
This is the song I only sing when you're sleeping. These are the words I say when you can't hear me. This is the way I look when you can't see me. And you will never know.
All the Silence of not Knowing ,leaves a Emptiness inside ,that lingers. Don't ever assume They will know ,as Time slips by ,They never knew ,how you always felt and desired .
Loving you is all I ever wanted ,Though My Heart is not being heard ,inside there is a empty space of not knowing ,even want this heart to be part your heart .you never say nothing to be heard
I heard you singing in my dreams, with the violins and orchestra to back you. Because it's not really what you say that matters or whether I'm listing or looking or here I feel your soul inside me and that's all I ever really need to know.
but if you took the time to look me in the eyes. you would know. beyond a doubt you would know. but thats the way glass breaks. leave me in pieces don't try to fix me. you'll only end up hurting yourself.
I'd still take you back after today...pathetic right?... I wish you can see me or hear the songs I sing.. But my favorite song is that of your voice... It's music to my ears.. But it's so silent here anymore.. I wanna rock the f out... Happy bday to me
Let's talk about love...she says you're all she's ever wanted, one way or another. Hearts not being heard...let's talk about empty spaces to comfort strangers who hope your heart to part theirs and emptiness when damage is done. Knowing is the emptiness inside that lingers. I know silence. You want what's within her? Desire.
I can't drift off to sleep at night until I have reasonably convinced myself of the fantasy that we are snuggling. Love you so… but you knew that. ;-) <3 XOXO
it kills me to know that i can only truly speak to you when i know you're asleep next to me. that i can only tell you my secrets and my feelings as i listen to your constant breathing. eventually, i say all that can be said and fall asleep next to you, listening to the rhythm of your heart with my ear on the mattress. if only i could have said these things to your face, maybe then you'd still take my calls.
You, you refuse to listen. (I resent you) You made me smile so easily. (I was happy for awhile) You'll never win me back. (I hate you) You're going to let me, let go. (I'm leaving)
I long for the day I can move away, let you go, stop expecting you to care. That day will mark the lightening of my load and i'll love again but i'll stop if it hurts. I just can't do this to myself again.
Yes, the damage is done. I am ashamed of you and me. There was no US. You were never with me. A relationship involves two willing people. That's what I learned from this. I believe love conquers all. Unfortunately, there wasn't love between you and me. It's lust and insanity. Miss butterfly
I'll wait for you as I have ever been... Even if it's in vain, even if you give up because I'll never know if you do. I believe someday my prince charming will come. Sweetie, i am patiently and aggressively waiting for you... <3 talking pig
Those whispers are Heard ,as it's clear ,you don't want love from me ,There was never really a "us" As you keep telling ,for a long time . You don't want me . There is no need for any more Whispers . Picture is clear Thanks
I fail to understand how you can make such a claim, knowing that the only one who has been unwilling to voice our connection is you. I have demanded, insisted on reserving as much space as needed to have you in my life… in whatever role as defined by the nature of our evolving relationship. Or, so I thought. You know me better than this. I don't repeatedly risk everything for mere lust. I've tried my best to dismiss fear of vulnerability, to express my love for you each and every day. To have the faith to believe that I wouldn't always remain in the shadow.
I feel so stupid and hurt. The messages are still relatively mixed and I don't know how to react. I do love you. I wish we could take a vacation. I'm still listening until you convey firmly that doing so is pointless. Sigh.
I don't believe you. No, seriously I don't believe you. I'm calling your bluff. I know in my soul that we love one another… it's just that it's complicated and messy. It's a beautiful complication that we are fortunate to have. Together we could ultimately make it right for everyone, dragonfly.
only wish knew ,you and i ,could get back ,only wish i knew you wanted my love in your life .maybe held ways to at least talk to each other . you will always be my heart.
Are you finally asleep? Now I can tell you that just thinking of you turns me completely inside out. I don't know what happened. It was not intentional and I realize how complicated it is. I don't know if it was all just a joke for you. I don't know if it's all just a dilusion with me. What I do know is that I don't want to let you go, and I don't want to be your misery. I just wish I had another chance to explore this mystery to me.
song of time always gets to become a song that warms a soul with true love ,that has a deep truth to it ,always knew long time ago .
becoming even ,yes my love ,i don't even know if should laugh and hug you for the love that has been finial shown.
the way you shown your love ,reflects all that shall never change deep within you ,having so much time on your hands ,has taken our love with creation to be placed in so many ways .
only reflects something even i could never shown in the love .
smiling so big right now baby ,you opened the eyes for not only just me ,for others and for this appreciation,will love you much more .
relationship takes something much deeper than breaths inside you . the fame and glory by your hands ,with every heart beat ,each word carefully spoken to create all secrets ,shall never bring such hurt for a ending .
only a truth of everything most knew the person you have always been .
as for my heart and soul ,shall never see this creation by my hands towards your own heart ,not from the love i have for you or from the hands of anyone else . through our eyes ,was deeper respect for you ,than you ever saw .
the love you held for me and the rest ,well honey you out did your self . there shall always be a song for you . Stories among many ,though listen as only impact becomes a nothing .
leaves something forever inside ,knowing you never truly held a love . not now ,not ever .
Sem despedidas... Só silêncio e lágrimas. Você disse que seria melhor se eu não estivesse por perto e tudo que eu fiz foi dar o passo que você não conseguiu dar. Sem novas palavras... Sem mais rimas... Só um ponto final para terminar uma das minhas histórias preferidas. Não, não está tudo bem. Mas vai ficar. Com o tempo.
yes, you will never know.
ReplyDeleteBut sometimes I wish you would.
ReplyDeleteIf I only knew, I might share with you what I've been hiding too.
ReplyDeleteIf this really were from You...
ReplyDeleteIf this is how You really feel...
If this is really how You act...
and if You would only tell me...
Then I would tell You I do this too.
Time has come and gone,
ReplyDeleteThrough laughter and pain,
Stories among many,
I listen, but hear nothing.
All the Silence of not Knowing ,leaves a Emptiness inside ,that lingers.
ReplyDeleteDon't ever assume They will know ,as Time slips by ,They never knew ,how you always felt and desired .
Loving you is all I ever wanted ,Though My Heart is not being heard ,inside there is a empty space of not knowing ,even want this heart to be part your heart .you never say nothing to be heard
ReplyDeleteIf I knew ,you wanted me ,I would share with you ,that is in me
ReplyDeletedon't hide no more please tell me ,need to know
ReplyDeleteImagine... that this is what they feel about you, too.
ReplyDeleteI heard you singing in my dreams,
ReplyDeletewith the violins and orchestra to back you.
Because it's not really what you say that matters
or whether I'm listing or looking or here
I feel your soul inside me
and that's all I ever really need to know.
you will never know, because i know you will never care.
ReplyDeletethese are the funny faces I make when Im walking alone, when everyone's asleep and when I'm blind drunk
ReplyDeleteIn my heart, I love you. On my mind, I hate you. When can I see you again? I hate waiting :( Love, Me.
ReplyDeletebut if you took the time to look me in the eyes. you would know. beyond a doubt you would know. but thats the way glass breaks. leave me in pieces don't try to fix me. you'll only end up hurting yourself.
ReplyDeleteI'd still take you back after today...pathetic right?... I wish you can see me or hear the songs I sing.. But my favorite song is that of your voice... It's music to my ears.. But it's so silent here anymore.. I wanna rock the f out... Happy bday to me
ReplyDeleteLet's talk about love...she says you're all she's ever wanted, one way or another. Hearts not being heard...let's talk about empty spaces to comfort strangers who hope your heart to part theirs and emptiness when damage is done. Knowing is the emptiness inside that lingers. I know silence. You want what's within her? Desire.
ReplyDeleteI will know. Because I know what you're trying to break. Steel.
ReplyDeletebut i'll do it anyway, for forever.
ReplyDeleteone day you'll look up and
notice
i am a torrent for you.
I can't drift off to sleep at night until I have reasonably convinced myself of the fantasy that we are snuggling. Love you so… but you knew that. ;-) <3 XOXO
ReplyDeleteit kills me to know that i can only truly speak to you when i know you're asleep next to me. that i can only tell you my secrets and my feelings as i listen to your constant breathing. eventually, i say all that can be said and fall asleep next to you, listening to the rhythm of your heart with my ear on the mattress. if only i could have said these things to your face, maybe then you'd still take my calls.
ReplyDeleteand your never know thats its your voice that i hear when im sleeping. Its your face that i see, when i close my eyes
ReplyDeleteThen who do I sing for?
ReplyDeleteYou, you refuse to listen. (I resent you)
ReplyDeleteYou made me smile so easily. (I was happy for awhile)
You'll never win me back. (I hate you)
You're going to let me, let go. (I'm leaving)
when people don't talk either it doesn't mean anything to them or it means everything...
ReplyDeleteI long for the day I can move away, let you go, stop expecting you to care. That day will mark the lightening of my load and i'll love again but i'll stop if it hurts.
ReplyDeleteI just can't do this to myself again.
Yes, the damage is done. I am ashamed of you and me. There was no US. You were never with me. A relationship involves two willing people. That's what I learned from this. I believe love conquers all. Unfortunately, there wasn't love between you and me. It's lust and insanity. Miss butterfly
ReplyDelete(give thanks and praise)(I don't want you)
ReplyDeleteI'll wait for you as I have ever been... Even if it's in vain, even if you give up because I'll never know if you do. I believe someday my prince charming will come. Sweetie, i am patiently and aggressively waiting for you...
ReplyDelete<3 talking pig
Those whispers are Heard ,as it's clear ,you don't want love from me ,There was never really a "us"
ReplyDeleteAs you keep telling ,for a long time .
You don't want me .
There is no need for any more Whispers .
Picture is clear
Thanks
PHS!
ReplyDeleteI wish you knew what I think of you, how I feel, what I do, how you consume my mind. Maybe then you'll fall in love with me too.
ReplyDeleteBut I don't have the guts to tell you. Maybe one day.
Or maybe, you will never know.
I fail to understand how you can make such a claim, knowing that the only one who has been unwilling to voice our connection is you. I have demanded, insisted on reserving as much space as needed to have you in my life… in whatever role as defined by the nature of our evolving relationship. Or, so I thought. You know me better than this. I don't repeatedly risk everything for mere lust. I've tried my best to dismiss fear of vulnerability, to express my love for you each and every day. To have the faith to believe that I wouldn't always remain in the shadow.
ReplyDeleteI feel so stupid and hurt. The messages are still relatively mixed and I don't know how to react. I do love you. I wish we could take a vacation. I'm still listening until you convey firmly that doing so is pointless. Sigh.
P.S. What is the deal with "flying/talking pig?"
Also, ND. Also, banjos. <3
I don't believe you. No, seriously I don't believe you. I'm calling your bluff. I know in my soul that we love one another… it's just that it's complicated and messy. It's a beautiful complication that we are fortunate to have. Together we could ultimately make it right for everyone, dragonfly.
ReplyDeleteDream police does exist because I am not good enough for you :(
ReplyDeleteI feel the same. Unexpressed actions that are shaped by our concerns on how the other party feel.
ReplyDeleteIs this what is holding us back?
You are never near me except in my dreams which I can't turn off
ReplyDeleteI miss Scorpion. She touched me and I swear the earth stood still! It was like love at first sting. I hope she is at peace.
ReplyDeleteYes ,This is What is Holding each other Back.
ReplyDeleteI Still Love You ,more Today than Ever Thought Existed
ReplyDeleteI love you too. We are apart at distance, but never at heart. Talking pig <3
ReplyDeleteonly wish knew ,you and i ,could get back ,only wish i knew you wanted my love in your life .maybe held ways to at least talk to each other .
ReplyDeleteyou will always be my heart.
knew i wanted you ,you should always know ,i want you ,for rest of my life .
ReplyDeleteWhen can we see each other ?
ReplyDeletespeak words ,that was never in love with me ,that was all a joke ,you know me well .even how to crumble my heart more .
ReplyDeleteare we even now ,did you get a laugh over my tears .
ReplyDeleteyou still will be a part of me ,as i will always love you ,despite my heart to you ,was only a get even joke.
ReplyDeleteI've always loved you.
ReplyDeleteAre you finally asleep? Now I can tell you that just thinking of you turns me completely inside out. I don't know what happened. It was not intentional and I realize how complicated it is. I don't know if it was all just a joke for you. I don't know if it's all just a dilusion with me. What I do know is that I don't want to let you go, and I don't want to be your misery. I just wish I had another chance to explore this mystery to me.
ReplyDeletesong of time always gets to become a song that warms a soul with true love ,that has a deep truth to it ,always knew long time ago .
ReplyDeletebecoming even ,yes my love ,i don't even know if should laugh and hug you for the love that has been finial shown.
the way you shown your love ,reflects all that shall never change deep within you ,having so much time on your hands ,has taken our love with creation to be placed in so many ways .
only reflects something even i could never shown in the love .
smiling so big right now baby ,you opened the eyes for not only just me ,for others and for this appreciation,will love you much more .
relationship takes something much deeper than breaths inside you .
ReplyDeletethe fame and glory by your hands ,with every heart beat ,each word carefully spoken to create all secrets ,shall never bring such hurt for a ending .
only a truth of everything most knew the person you have always been .
as for my heart and soul ,shall never see this creation by my hands towards your own heart ,not from the love i have for you or from the hands of anyone else .
through our eyes ,was deeper respect for you ,than you ever saw .
the love you held for me and the rest ,well honey you out did your self .
there shall always be a song for you .
Stories among many ,though listen as only impact becomes a nothing .
leaves something forever inside ,knowing you never truly held a love .
not now ,not ever .
be happy ,where ever you wander too .
My heart to yours was never a joke. Bust it wide open. Me.
ReplyDeleteGod, this is so beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI miss this feeling.
I believe in you and I. Me.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful
ReplyDeleteAlthough you've moved on to the relationship you never wanted to have with me, your words still haunt me:
ReplyDeletewhen you meet my mom...
this feels so right...
I sent it in my stead to make you happy...
and I can't help but wonder why I couldn't have made you happy
it's been so clear that all this time ,what was in my heart ,you never wanted to love and take care
ReplyDeleteonly wanted to make it hurt
be foolish
watch this heart crumble
it never meant nothing to you at all
a love that only hurt now hurts more
ReplyDelete..because you're just not there anymore..you're gone....
ReplyDeleteSem despedidas... Só silêncio e lágrimas. Você disse que seria melhor se eu não estivesse por perto e tudo que eu fiz foi dar o passo que você não conseguiu dar. Sem novas palavras... Sem mais rimas... Só um ponto final para terminar uma das minhas histórias preferidas. Não, não está tudo bem. Mas vai ficar. Com o tempo.
ReplyDeleteI wish that you could share it with me.
ReplyDeleteI wish that I could share it all with you. Again.
The real me is grounded and faithful, belonging to others who belong, in turn, to me.
ReplyDeleteBut when I dream,
I lie still
in your arms
and we dance.