I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Monday, August 29, 2011
The Fear Of Floating Away
That's what it feels like when you fall from great heights. That's what it feels like when your heart grows back. That's what it feels like when you don't want to feel. But this, this is just me.
Somewhere in the castle ground, With celebrations all around, You find yourself all alone, Your heart refusing to sing the song... Your heart refusing to sing the song...
But still you enjoy listening to the sound they are making.
"That's what it's like when your heart grows back." Even the good things feel like chaos. But you know differently now. Trust your heart to assign new meaning to whatever love you're feeling. Let yourself grow. Thinking of you, sending my love and support. Me
What if you're caught after that great fall? What if your heart grows back just in time to get snatched up by someone else? What about when the pain goes away and you want to feel again? What happens then?
"When your heart grows back" back to back with "when you don't want to feel." Yes, this is how it feels - like everything is happening all at once. I think the secret is just to try being worthy of it. Both the pleasure and the pain.
Go where the winds of love take you. It's ok, sweetheart. Be happy. You don't need to fill me; your happiness and peace are gifts enough. Love you so much, ks. Me
Falling from great heights is what you feel when you totally love and trust someone and you find they didn't love you at all...not nearly the same way you loved them...and so you either let them go or accept that they love you the best that THEY are capable of...for better or worse..
No fear. Out goes ego. Chaos develop into trust. I'm pretty deeply rooted in the soil, stretching for the sun. My heart getting contours of a heart again. And nothing or none is false. Not me, not you.
Tonight I saw the first star through layers of clouds & stormy summer rain and I wished for (You, only You)
Dreaming tonight of (the acceleration of moments, until that split-second instant when Here and Now intersect finding ourselves in the middle of the crossroads of the universe)
Dreams of stars & blankets & sky-gazing & (You, only You) Wondering if you dream this, too
I don't love pain so much that I would jump from great heights to test my limits. I need to know you are there to catch me. This is my weakness. If I knew that falling would become floating, I would do it right now.
Peeking over the edge. Heart in throat. Jumping from here to there. Feeling my heart bounce from my soul to heaven. Warm breeze running down my spine and back up again. Floating. A net of pink fluffy clouds catching my fall.
I need this right this moment.
ReplyDeleteThank you, I haven't always be kind to you but I'm grateful for you presence in this world.
I'm afraid of floating away from me. I will believe in love to catch me when I believe I can catch myself. Trust X je bent lief
beauty.
ReplyDeleteI feel you.
ReplyDeleteSomewhere in the castle ground,
ReplyDeleteWith celebrations all around,
You find yourself all alone,
Your heart refusing to sing the song...
Your heart refusing to sing the song...
But still you enjoy listening to the sound they are making.
"That's what it's like when your heart grows back." Even the good things feel like chaos. But you know differently now. Trust your heart to assign new meaning to whatever love you're feeling. Let yourself grow. Thinking of you, sending my love and support. Me
ReplyDeleteWhat if you're caught after that great fall? What if your heart grows back just in time to get snatched up by someone else? What about when the pain goes away and you want to feel again? What happens then?
ReplyDelete"When your heart grows back" back to back with "when you don't want to feel." Yes, this is how it feels - like everything is happening all at once. I think the secret is just to try being worthy of it. Both the pleasure and the pain.
ReplyDeleteI love your soul.
No fear because I rise above it all. Me.
ReplyDeleteThis post, this one, with all it's comments, is what I cherish today <3
ReplyDeleteAh, I see. It's almost clear now.
ReplyDeleteGo where the winds of love take you.
ReplyDeleteIt's ok, sweetheart. Be happy. You don't need to fill me; your happiness and peace are gifts enough. Love you so much, ks. Me
ploff!!!!!!! hahahaha
ReplyDeleteFalling from great heights is what you feel when you totally love and trust someone and you find they didn't love you at all...not nearly the same way you loved them...and so you either let them go or accept that they love you the best that THEY are capable of...for better or worse..
ReplyDeleteBroken
No fear. Out goes ego. Chaos develop into trust. I'm pretty deeply rooted in the soil, stretching for the sun. My heart getting contours of a heart again. And nothing or none is false. Not me, not you.
ReplyDeleteMy heart getting contours of a heart again. And nothing or none is false. Not me, not you.
ReplyDeleteI loved you enough to let you go.
Tears...I want so much to believe this is true. Focus on you and all that's going well right now. Please leave me out of it. Too toxic for us both.
ReplyDeleteTonight I saw the first star
ReplyDeletethrough layers of clouds & stormy summer rain
and I wished for
(You,
only You)
Dreaming tonight of
(the acceleration of moments,
until that split-second instant
when Here and Now
intersect
finding ourselves in the middle of
the crossroads
of the universe)
Dreams of stars & blankets & sky-gazing &
(You,
only You)
Wondering if you dream this, too
Holding you in my heart, Corazon mio
x
ff
I know this place well.
ReplyDeleteI'll meet you there <3
I don't love pain so much that I would jump from great heights to test my limits. I need to know you are there to catch me. This is my weakness. If I knew that falling would become floating, I would do it right now.
ReplyDeleteJust beautiful - the words and the image. Both floating away and falling...
ReplyDeleteI have always wonder, what it feels like to be lost & to be floating or how it came about...guess things will never be the same again.
ReplyDeleteI am dissolved into your soul and I am happy
ReplyDeletei hope fear never gets in the way again.
ReplyDeletePeeking over the edge. Heart in throat. Jumping from here to there. Feeling my heart bounce from my soul to heaven. Warm breeze running down my spine and back up again. Floating. A net of pink fluffy clouds catching my fall.
ReplyDeleteSimply beautiful. Brilliant! I love your work!
And I love love LOVE YOU x
I really am afraid I will float up and away this is not like a feeling of in love its an actual phobia any words?
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