I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
The Fractals Of Time Passing
Today you became a yesterday, when once you were a tomorrow.
And in time, even empires of hulking glass citadels will come crashing down, resting peacefully as they become the spines of mountain ranges. Pools will become seedlings for lakes, and gardens will become forests. Slowly but surely our mark will be erased from the earth. Just as the scars you left on me have just become more wrinkles on my face.
i remember when you told me that you weren't sure if you would love me forever, you weren't even sure if you would love me in the morning. and i told you that was okay, we could take it a day at a time. but i closed my eyes and held my breath and we stepped into tomorrow, but when i opened my eyes, i left you somewhere in yesterday.
You don't want commitment, I accepted. You can't give time, I accepted. What more do you want from me? On Christmas day, you just dropped me. How can we be friends right after you told me you don't want me anymore? You just don't care, do you?
I cling, I cling, not to you, but my own star-bound, ink-smudged, late-night, under-starlight scribbles of what you and I would be. We were more. And my tomorrows.
Some people build you up just to bend and break you. I don't believe you did this - but it seems you wanted to become my yesterday. Even though I believe deep down, you want to be in my tomorrow. How long do I wait before I have to let you go.
This just broke my heart. You are right and I never wanted it to be this way. I love you but don't know how to help you.
ReplyDeleteThis is too familiar to me.
ReplyDeleteThank you for what you do here, you had a hand in saving me.
You're my invisible hero.
And now the whole world seems empty without you...What is more hurting is that you don't even remember me anymore...
ReplyDeleteAnd in time, even empires of hulking glass citadels will come crashing down, resting peacefully as they become the spines of mountain ranges. Pools will become seedlings for lakes, and gardens will become forests. Slowly but surely our mark will be erased from the earth. Just as the scars you left on me have just become more wrinkles on my face.
ReplyDeleteHe just left, back to the Ukraine. Who knew you could love someone so deeply when once they were a stranger?
ReplyDeletei do remember
ReplyDeleteThe glass is half-full, but it is more than I could have asked for.
ReplyDeletei remember when you told me that you weren't sure if you would love me forever, you weren't even sure if you would love me in the morning. and i told you that was okay, we could take it a day at a time. but i closed my eyes and held my breath and we stepped into tomorrow, but when i opened my eyes, i left you somewhere in yesterday.
ReplyDeleteI didn't forget you. Remember, you rejected me. How long was I supposed to wait for you?
ReplyDeleteYour timing is impeccable. This really hit me in the gut. I made a decision today, for myself. We're no longer an 'us'.
ReplyDelete"Today you were far away. And I didn't ask you why. What could I say? I was far away."
This one is a zinger. Love this!!!
ReplyDeleteWanna guess what we did in between? Watched a Fractal show in a Science Museum. I never have enough words for you, Iain.
ReplyDeleteAnonymous said...
ReplyDeleteI didn't forget you. Remember, you rejected me. How long was I supposed to wait for you?
Monday, January 09, 2012
who are you?
You don't want commitment, I accepted. You can't give time, I accepted. What more do you want from me? On Christmas day, you just dropped me. How can we be friends right after you told me you don't want me anymore? You just don't care, do you?
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that I can now think of you as a yesterday, and that I have no desire whatsoever anymore for you to be a tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteyou just left a scar on me that will not be removed by anything nor anyone.
ReplyDeleteYou could've been my every tomorrow;
ReplyDeleteBut you chose to be a yesterday.
it's strange how a simple sentence shatters a small part of my heart... in a good way of course.
ReplyDeleteI cling, I cling, not to you, but my own star-bound, ink-smudged, late-night, under-starlight scribbles of what you and I would be. We were more. And my tomorrows.
ReplyDeletehttp://youtu.be/F8Wg5nwOs9E
ReplyDeleteI believe in yesterday.
ReplyDeleteSome people build you up just to bend and break you. I don't believe you did this - but it seems you wanted to become my yesterday. Even though I believe deep down, you want to be in my tomorrow. How long do I wait before I have to let you go.
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