I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Friday, December 7, 2012
The Shadows On The Curtain
Sometimes the most important thing you can say is just
As many times as you piss me off, you're my person. I need to know you are breathing, alive and hopefully smiling because if I lose you I don't know what I'd do. I can't describe it, I don't know why I care but damnit, I do care. I loved you then, I love you now, I'll always love you. Get your shit together if not for you, for me. Please.
I'm not OK. Hiding behind the usual childish behaviour. Actually stumbling & cracking. Hitting rock bottom perhaps? I promise I'll do my very best to rise & shine soon. And to mature. I love you so much. Hope you're OK. Miss you.
I'm not okay, and it isn't something you can fix, though maybe you can, but I know you wouldn't. Apparently I'm not precious enough for you to be fought for. I'm not okay because I'm tired of fighting for something that has never existed in the first place.
I am not okay. I have never been since we said goodbye. And I am sorry I was too weak to give up on us. I have always been sorry since I realized I couldn't be completely happy without you. I've been hurting for a long time now. Believe me, I tried to forget but everything just seems to remind me of you. I know you're happy now, so I won't bother you anymore. It's just that, I am not okay.
Are you?
ReplyDeleteWhy do I get a feeling you're playing fire again?
As many times as you piss me off, you're my person. I need to know you are breathing, alive and hopefully smiling because if I lose you I don't know what I'd do. I can't describe it, I don't know why I care but damnit, I do care. I loved you then, I love you now, I'll always love you. Get your shit together if not for you, for me. Please.
They say with the right tools you can fix anything.
ReplyDeleteAre we ever gonna fix us?
Or maybe it's time to forget us.
I'll always love you.
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ReplyDeleteI'm not okay.I don't know how long will it take for me to feel okay again. I'm not okay. You can't expect me to be okay after what you've done to me.
ReplyDeleteI'm not OK. Hiding behind the usual childish behaviour. Actually stumbling & cracking. Hitting rock bottom perhaps? I promise I'll do my very best to rise & shine soon. And to mature. I love you so much. Hope you're OK. Miss you.
ReplyDeletesometimes it's hard to decipher whether you want the real answer or not..
ReplyDeleteAnd it makes all the differences in the world.
ReplyDeletei hope youre okay.
ReplyDeleteNo.. but you haven't asked and I won't tell.
ReplyDeleteI'm beginning to think that being used is all I'm good for.
Will I ever be okay?
There are people who are going to ask.
ReplyDeleteYou must tell them the truth.
Sometimes we feel like it can't really matter.
It does.
Life's a bumpy ride
Hold on.
I hope to see you, laughing, on the other side.
I'll still hide under my fake smile, but at least my heart will know there's still some good out there.
ReplyDeleteoh yes.
ReplyDeleteand often, the person who asks everyone if theyre ok is the person who really needs to be asked.
Golden!!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm not okay, and it isn't something you can fix, though maybe you can, but I know you wouldn't. Apparently I'm not precious enough for you to be fought for. I'm not okay because I'm tired of fighting for something that has never existed in the first place.
ReplyDeleteyou think my love for you isn't real. why am i still here then? i loved you then, i love you now, and i'll always love you. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI am not okay. I have never been since we said goodbye. And I am sorry I was too weak to give up on us. I have always been sorry since I realized I couldn't be completely happy without you. I've been hurting for a long time now. Believe me, I tried to forget but everything just seems to remind me of you. I know you're happy now, so I won't bother you anymore. It's just that, I am not okay.
ReplyDeleteAre you OK now?
ReplyDelete