I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
The Upsidedowness Of Everything
So yes, I laughed. I laughed at the pain and the futility and the frustration and the heartache to keep it separate from me. And while it may seem like insanity to you, it is the thing that prevents it, for me.
Someone once told me it's okay to lose it sometimes and be insane. That it's okay to forget about everything for one moment and just think of all the good things. One moment of joy. One moment of peace. <3
Maybe it's because of the effort to move the muscles, or the chemicals in the brain - at least during that little tiny moment that we laugh, we do forget :)
The night this was written, I had been thinking about when I told him I couldn't see him anymore. I thought about how he laughed when I said goodbye. I won't tell myself that he did because the pain was too much, but the coincidence itself was enough for today. The universe shows it cares in funny little ways. Thanks for helping.
I laugh and reach for a pen, or my phone, a means to share this moment with you -the only person who'd understand. I'd give anything to hear that music come from your mouth again.
No matter how hard I try I just can't laugh how can one laugh fighting the pain the heartache that only he can feel ... I cry instead , it makes me strong.
what is real anyway? aren't we all a little insane.
ReplyDeleteAll the best people are completely bonkers <3 loved this post, and all the rest!
ReplyDeletei love it. awesome.
ReplyDeleteSomeone once told me it's okay to lose it sometimes and be insane. That it's okay to forget about everything for one moment and just think of all the good things. One moment of joy. One moment of peace. <3
ReplyDeletei love this. to bits and pieces. exactly what i need right now.
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so true. except, i cry instead of laugh.
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's because of the effort to move the muscles, or the chemicals in the brain - at least during that little tiny moment that we laugh, we do forget :)
ReplyDeletebecause as they say, laughter is the best medicine
ReplyDeleteYoucantclaiminsanityifyoudontpleadit.
ReplyDeleteYou just love the past. Forget the future then
I'm glad you can laugh, even its to ward off pain, just so long as you don't forget the sound of your own laughter.
ReplyDeleteYou taught me that :)
I love you.
I'm going to a funeral in an hour, and I agree.
ReplyDeleteHow is it that you see my soul and put my life into words?
ReplyDeleteI suppose that just goes to show how much people are really all the same.
Oh, I love this one!
ReplyDeleteI wish it was a bookmark...
This is why I laugh. "A Smile is just a frown turned upside down."
ReplyDeleteThe night this was written, I had been thinking about when I told him I couldn't see him anymore. I thought about how he laughed when I said goodbye. I won't tell myself that he did because the pain was too much, but the coincidence itself was enough for today. The universe shows it cares in funny little ways. Thanks for helping.
ReplyDeleteInsanity is sanity, if you've been insane too long.
ReplyDeleteI laugh and reach for a pen, or my phone, a means to share this moment with you -the only person who'd understand. I'd give anything to hear that music come from your mouth again.
ReplyDeleteWhy don't you get it? My heart aches everytime I try to injure yours.
ReplyDeleteSo I laughed to mask the slight shadows crossing my face everytime it happens.
And yes, I laugh out loud to mask it all. But how come you cannot see what really lies beneath all those acts?
I'm falling over you. Quite hard.
It hurts..
Sometimes I think you lied when you said you wanted me to let go. Sometimes I think I think that because it lessens the pain of the reality.
ReplyDeleteI always thought laughing was your own natural medicine. Still, stop laughing at other people's misfortune.
ReplyDeleteI always thought laughing was your own natural medicine. Still, stop laughing at other people's misfortune.
ReplyDeleteNo matter how hard I try I just can't laugh how can one laugh fighting the pain the heartache that only he can feel ... I cry instead , it makes me strong.
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