I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for.
You were meant to read these words.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
The Superstition And The Fear
And if you knew just how I felt, you could kill me, with just one look.
I must say i was a tad disappointed to see (i know i was late seeing it, but i did, just recently) your talk at TED's. It made me feel like your interest in your blog is soley commercial.
But of course, you have to make a living out of something. And commercial or not, this is a breathe taking thing you do. Lifesaving, at least.
The reason that Anon who was 'disappointed' with your TED Talk is because he heard your voice but he did not LISTEN.
Anywho, this is brilliance. Sheer and utter brilliance. I am sure you know how to brush off wrong headed criticism like that, but I am just encouraging you to discount hints that this is anything other than your free expression. If you can earn a coin, as you know, I am all for it. Especially if you get to reach and help many, many, many more people.
Were you to gain any wealth from your talent, so be it. For all that you will have given, it would still be a bargain.
I'm being careful because of that, because maybe that's true. Maybe you could kill a piece of me with ease, but I'm starting to think that I want to take that chance. I'm starting to think we could be happy because you make me smile.
hye... u hv a nice entry.. keep up yr gud work dear.. in the meantime, feel free to visit n be my follower at http://ahealthtipsblog.blogspot.com see you there! :-)
I finally figure out why you do what you do, excellence is your standard, glad that you didn't let me drag you down to my level. We still have chances to catch the excellence.
You love to know everything but stay in the background, am I right? I felt somewhat alone in this, or is it just me being uncooperative?
"you are so delusional, it's sad really. I hope I never run into you anywhere. I'm serious. you lost your chance of being friends with me a long time ago. I never liked you, and never will. you will never know me. and honestly, I think you have some issues that you need to deal with on your own. so, good luck with that. don't bother replying to this. cause whatever you have to say back, i don't care."
We finally ran into each other and ya know what? I really didn't give 2 shits . The whole theatrics of everything took hold of my one-tracked mind and you (or him?) did a wurly woop on me in my vulnerable state.
Fuck you for that.
I may be delusional, I may be a dick. I might be a liar, I might be a manipulative douche. But you never really knew for sure, now did ya?
I could apologize 1000 times over, but you'd still hate me the same.
I'm glad I went through what I did, I'm glad I didn't end up with you.
You wished I liked you, but I actually always saw the worst of me in you. Meaning? I never liked you...
No bitter taste left in my mouth, g'bye darling....
No one is hotter than you. Im still not sure this is you. Im sorry you feel the way you do. I dont hate you and hope you are happy. You win - sure it stings and hopefully that makes you smile. Im used to being hated - ask Christy - so feel free. At least this way you dont take it out on others. I still like you and hope someday you might change your mind. You really are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I guess until we can have a real conversation like normal people, you can stay mad. But if we ever do have a conversation, prepare to want to kick my ass. I dont think I could help myself from wanting to have fun with you. No scowling.
I know exactly who you are and I love what you wrote for me. You are right, I do have issues of my own and I am working on that. I love you. I love that feeling I feel for you but no one else. But what I love you the most is that you go out of your way and try everything you can to help me to be a better person. You love me too, I hope.
I have a long list of the issues i need to work on. Ego is the worst one. The second worst is that I wear a mask, people pleaser. I accept who I was and this makes it easier for me to work on my issues. I hated you and I may still do when I remember those bad times, but that's minor issue on my side now. Do you still hate me? Feel free to do so....I deserve that. I am willing to do anything to make it up with you.
It's about the time for us to have a real conversation like normal people do. I am preparing for this. It's simple but its the hardest thing for me to do. Please be patient with me....I am very slow and I have to be very well prepared.
You know what?.....if he just can't tell me directly how he feels then I'm just going to assume he hates me because it's easier that way, but I will continue to love him.
All I ever did was love you and I thought in my heart you felt the same. It was never about money or material things...just being together...but now I know it was all a lie...all you ever wanted was a little flavor on the side...you NEVER had any intention of anything more.
I believed in you... Now I believe in nothing...Thank You!
I must say i was a tad disappointed to see (i know i was late seeing it, but i did, just recently) your talk at TED's. It made me feel like your interest in your blog is soley commercial.
ReplyDeleteBut of course, you have to make a living out of something. And commercial or not, this is a breathe taking thing you do. Lifesaving, at least.
Love,
a refound fan.
woah
ReplyDeleteI miss talking to you,
ReplyDeleteBut I don't miss talking to me.
Commercial or not, it's lifesaving... I have to save myself because you don't.
ReplyDeleteLove, lol
You already know how I feel. I already know how you feel.
ReplyDeleteI don't care about anyone else.
ReplyDeleteThe reason that Anon who was 'disappointed' with your TED Talk is because he heard your voice but he did not LISTEN.
ReplyDeleteAnywho, this is brilliance. Sheer and utter brilliance. I am sure you know how to brush off wrong headed criticism like that, but I am just encouraging you to discount hints that this is anything other than your free expression. If you can earn a coin, as you know, I am all for it. Especially if you get to reach and help many, many, many more people.
Were you to gain any wealth from your talent, so be it. For all that you will have given, it would still be a bargain.
and if you didn't feel the way you did,
ReplyDeletei would prefer the death.
I'm being careful because of that, because maybe that's true. Maybe you could kill a piece of me with ease, but I'm starting to think that I want to take that chance. I'm starting to think we could be happy because you make me smile.
ReplyDeleteSuch is his glare,
ReplyDeleteInto my hopeless eyes.
mindreader
ReplyDeletehye... u hv a nice entry.. keep up yr gud work dear.. in the meantime, feel free to visit n be my follower at http://ahealthtipsblog.blogspot.com
ReplyDeletesee you there! :-)
How did you manage to express just what I feel? <3
ReplyDeleteBye bye Clinic. How about Alaska?
ReplyDeleteJust one look from you and my heart stops and I lose myself in the thought of you...
ReplyDeleteAnd then I hear her name, see her face and its like a sharp ice dagger right through my heart, bringing me back to reality...
Broken...
I should take a $100,000 dollar pottery class. Show everyone how smart I am.
ReplyDeletebut i trusted you because i thought you wouldn't!
ReplyDeleteI finally figure out why you do what you do, excellence is your standard, glad that you didn't let me drag you down to my level. We still have chances to catch the excellence.
ReplyDeleteYou love to know everything but stay in the background, am I right? I felt somewhat alone in this, or is it just me being uncooperative?
Love <3
You push me in the background...
ReplyDeleteYou never let me in...
There are no levels, just you, me ...and HER.
She knows that I love you, everybody knows that. What can I do now?
ReplyDeleteThe writing is on the wall. Open your eyes.
ReplyDeleteThe space between reads right to left.
ReplyDeleteNow its just you and her...
ReplyDeleteBroken
There's no me and her, she doesn't care about me at all. I am not an idiot.
ReplyDeleteHe met a new girl. Way hotter!
ReplyDeleteIf she doesn't care about you...why are you with her?
ReplyDeleteBecause you love her!
Broken
I love you. I tell you everyday. I always have and I will always.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel...
ReplyDelete"you are so delusional, it's sad really. I hope I never run into you anywhere. I'm serious. you lost your chance of being friends with me a long time ago. I never liked you, and never will. you will never know me. and honestly, I think you have some issues that you need to deal with on your own. so, good luck with that. don't bother replying to this. cause whatever you have to say back, i don't care."
We finally ran into each other and ya know what? I really didn't give 2 shits . The whole theatrics of everything took hold of my one-tracked mind and you (or him?) did a wurly woop on me in my vulnerable state.
Fuck you for that.
I may be delusional, I may be a dick. I might be a liar, I might be a manipulative douche. But you never really knew for sure, now did ya?
I could apologize 1000 times over, but you'd still hate me the same.
I'm glad I went through what I did, I'm glad I didn't end up with you.
You wished I liked you, but I actually always saw the worst of me in you. Meaning? I never liked you...
No bitter taste left in my mouth, g'bye darling....
If this is really you then:
ReplyDeleteNo one is hotter than you. Im still not sure this is you. Im sorry you feel the way you do. I dont hate you and hope you are happy. You win - sure it stings and hopefully that makes you smile. Im used to being hated - ask Christy - so feel free. At least this way you dont take it out on others. I still like you and hope someday you might change your mind. You really are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I guess until we can have a real conversation like normal people, you can stay mad. But if we ever do have a conversation, prepare to want to kick my ass. I dont think I could help myself from wanting to have fun with you. No scowling.
Good luck with your new hot girl. Dont ever think about me when you are with her, cause that will make me throw up...
ReplyDeleteg'bye, Mister
Thanks for being honest. Im looking for a positive place. All you have to offer is poison. Ill keep looking.
ReplyDeletePositivity is key. That is what I have to offer you.
ReplyDeleteNo thanks. Its like Richard Dawkins likes to say - "She's not good enough for you."
ReplyDeleteAnd positivity is not the key. But it is funny that you would think that.
I know exactly who you are and I love what you wrote for me. You are right, I do have issues of my own and I am working on that. I love you. I love that feeling I feel for you but no one else. But what I love you the most is that you go out of your way and try everything you can to help me to be a better person. You love me too, I hope.
ReplyDeleteI have a long list of the issues i need to work on. Ego is the worst one. The second worst is that I wear a mask, people pleaser. I accept who I was and this makes it easier for me to work on my issues. I hated you and I may still do when I remember those bad times, but that's minor issue on my side now. Do you still hate me? Feel free to do so....I deserve that. I am willing to do anything to make it up with you.
It's about the time for us to have a real conversation like normal people do. I am preparing for this. It's simple but its the hardest thing for me to do. Please be patient with me....I am very slow and I have to be very well prepared.
Love <3
I love you and I always will, but you are with her, there is no place for me in your life...
ReplyDeleteI need to face that, as hurtful as it is...
Broken
A very important question: should I call and go, or just go?
ReplyDeleteYou wont ever see me again, so dont worry about it.
ReplyDeleteBeing positive that all is right in the world is what I meant.
ReplyDeleteYou know what?.....if he just can't tell me directly how he feels then I'm just going to assume he hates me because it's easier that way, but I will continue to love him.
ReplyDeletelove peace hope
ReplyDeleteWhich is why i try so hard to keep up this facade.
ReplyDeleteAll I ever did was love you and I thought in my heart you felt the same. It was never about money or material things...just being together...but now I know it was all a lie...all you ever wanted was a little flavor on the side...you NEVER had any intention of anything more.
ReplyDeleteI believed in you...
Now I believe in nothing...Thank You!
Broken
I am afraid you will never love me as much as I love you.
ReplyDeleteI KNOW you never loved me the way I loved you...
ReplyDeleteBroken
You brought false love, life and light into my life.
ReplyDeleteLike a flower in the Spring I have bloomed, stood bright in the sun and now am wilted :(
Broken
You're right positivity isn't and wasn't the key.
ReplyDeleteAnd if you told me what's in your mind, you could kill me, with your words.
ReplyDeleteAnd when you found me dead, i wonder if you shed a tear in my memory, or just watched me yet again with your cold, jaded eyes.
ReplyDelete