Wednesday, July 31, 2019

The List Of Things That Are Ok

It’s ok to not what to do what you always do.

 It’s ok to want to be anyone else but you.

It’s ok to forget why you started in the first place.

It’s ok to not obey the rules you’ve made for yourself.

It’s ok to feel like a failure for not obeying those rules.

It’s ok to forget that how you feel is not how the rest of the world feels. 

It’s ok to walk around and squint in bright light.

It’s ok to hit the keys harder than you need to.

 It’s ok to find a small, secret space and say the things you need to say.

It’s ok not to have someone that’ll tell you it’s ok.

It’s ok to tell yourself that it’s ok.

 It’s ok not to be ok.

Tuesday, July 30, 2019

The River Crossing

You have this fantasy that by giving up, you will succeed. That just as you finally give up, everything will somehow work itself out, that people will respond to some kind of humanness in your act of giving up.

But that’s not what’s going to happen. You're just going to give up, not as a performative act, not as a way to showcase your humanity, just because you simply cannot be the character you’ve played for as long as you have.

You are not redeeming yourself.

You are simply giving up.

No rising sun.

No blinding light.