Monday, November 29, 2010

The Board And The Dice









It's a simple game. You win when you stop caring about it.

57 comments:

Anonymous said...

It's all right if I lose. I do not have it in me anymore to win this game.

Anonymous said...

Well then I guess the game is eternally unwinnable, Love. (Winks and blows a X.) <3

Doni Brown said...

Great picture!

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jordan emily said...

Indeed !

Anonymous said...

so true. thank you for this, thank you so much.

Karyn RR West 1 said...

Then you lost you time invested in caring in the first place, so why did you even bother?

Frauds in love are faux in language and I would like to start a reportevil.net website to more strongly deter it while reranking the value of various hooman character and behavior attribute valuations.

Yeah.

And oooohhh!!! Thanks!!! I love it when you write stuff just for me Dear.

;)

- A! -

Anonymous said...

This is true about so many aspects of life.

Jesse said...

You....
must know my life right now.
This came at such a perfect time.
You don't even know....

thank you.

Becky said...

Perfect for today.

delayne said...

After tearing myself up inside for over a week now, I recognize the answer that I've been looking for and this is it.

Once again I thank you for opening your heart and allowing the Universe to write through you, and I thank the Universe for pointing me in your direction so that I can get the message.

It's a seriously blessed thing that you do. :)

shira said...

my new mantra. thank you.

Unknown said...

How do you always know the perfect thing to say?

It's okay, I don't really want to know. But thank you for understanding in your own way. I wish I could tell you what's on my mind and you'd fix what's wrong but that's not quite how life works.

Anonymous said...

You should have won ages ago.

Tani said...

Mmmm.
Gorgeous photo, too. Could we have a print, please? :)

Anonymous said...

Not really, that's defined as lack of humility and pure laziness. For what you choose not to care for today will most likely become tomorrow's greatest concern. Quitters never win and the game of life is unavoidable. You either play to win or or others will dominate you with every move they make. It's your choice...

dorothy said...

yeah and i won but i win it alone

Cat said...

This came at the perfect time. I read it and my heart literally stopped because of how perfectly it described my life.

Thank you for being you.

Anonymous said...

If I win you I promise not to stop caring about you.

She said...

Thank you.

Anonymous said...

Happiness comes the moment you let go.

I love your words <3

CH said...

ah but the complexity lies in finding out how not to care

Anonymous said...

I know you. I've made studious observations of your reactions to the circumstances of our relationship. So I know that you don't tolerate foolish attempts at "playing hard to get." Let's cut to the chase. We are both winners in this "game" of love. The only question that remains is… what are we going to do about it? Miss you. I still think about you constantly.

Yue Huan said...

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Anonymous said...

when I come to you ,will we both win ,as I stand out in Front ,wondering if you can feel me so close to you .
Win ,yes we both never Lose /
I still love you
Yes ,What are we going do about it .
Meet in the Middle ,although are you going talk to me ,When I am so close .

Anonymous said...

How not to care would be so easy to fool ourselves .
years passed by ,when you see that ,once you had it all ,created so much ,walked away towards Life ,that held a heart with no true understanding ,really at times ,down right cold ,cruel,selfish.
Life is better to win in Love than give up and lose ,with never knowing .

Anonymous said...

never does one write just for you ,as it flows from the heart .
Finding where my Heart really belonged .
all those years ,shared together ,Life that was filled with heartache and Happiness ,Never did ,we become so cold ,as Love held us together .

Anonymous said...

something that taken me a long time to see ,the one that always ,love me ,was always there in shadows ,watching over me ,never giving up.

Anonymous said...

Then don't cheat yourself and in the process cheat me too. Think about that.

Melissa L said...

Atleast people think they do..

Anonymous said...

i still think about you too.

Anonymous said...

Our relationship? What relationship? You gave up on us long before you gave our relationship a chance. You're the quitter...you took me for granted.

You automatically assume I'm like the others who have come and gone only leaving behind deep imprints on your weak, fickle heart. You're so acclimated to getting everything you think you deserve and having everything done your way that you've misinterpreted everything about "US". You're so egotistical yet deep down you suffer from an inferiority complex which is why our relationship suffers.

You haven't allowed yourself to accept our relationship. Because for once in your life your witness to my love for you which is unconditional and you realize how good we are for each other. You're afraid.

I will not allow you to write me off like you have others in your past because of fear. Everyone who loves you or has loved you falls victim to your inability to allow yourself to open your heart wholeheartedly.

If you think you've won the game because you just stopped caring...I've got other news for you. First off it's not a game and secondly there will always be a part of me that lives inside of you and my memory will forever remain. Years will pass, yet the thought of me will come across your mind from time to time. You will question my love for you and regret your actions, or should I say inability to take our relationship to the next level, but do not feel inferior because I will always love you. Patience is a virtue and fate is unexplainable mystery that will always succeed in the end. What's meant to be...will be and someday will.

Anonymous said...

Truly, thank you.

TheDreamer said...

This scares and entrances me.
You have such a unique gift to see into the soul of the world.

Anonymous said...

It's simple. I'll never win because I'll never stop caring.

li-thium said...

I won :)

Anonymous said...

I had to give my response a certain amount of considerable thought. I want these words to be chosen carefully, tenderly so as to emphasize the closeness that I feel each and every day with you. It's true what they say about love being blinding. All consuming. (I've called your name out loud while half asleep; first thing in the morning, just after jabbing the snooze button - I'm told.)

I'm trying not to be overly defensive. I've been (and remain) blinded by ecstatic notions of US, so much so that I feel inclined to kick start that last semblance of logic that remains in my mind. That annoying, frustrating reasoning that screams out that the "next level" might include a conversation in real time. Using our vocal chords. Together. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, because I'm most definitely not. I love our ongoing conversation in the secret garden. If and when you or fate are ready to seek a higher elevation, let's talk all about it. I'm all ears. Miss you. XO.

P.S. I'm not fickle when it comes to you. You have me wrapped around your finger. (Grrr)

Anonymous said...

You see me through so complete...

Anonymous said...

I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I love you very much. You know that. However you disappoint me at times. Why do you feel this way about yourself? You are at times so negative...remember this, please...A strong positive mental attitude will create more miracles than any wonder drug. - Patricia Neal

Anonymous said...

makes some kind of sense

for the broken hearts
http://nostalgicsoulfacingreality.blogspot.com/

Anonymous said...

I don't regret my actions and never will because deep down inside I know what I want whether I am able to obtain it or not. But I regret those chances that were slipped away from me because of my fear for love and the consequent inability to love wholeheartedly.
It strikes me how well and exact you see me through. It might be bad news to others but it's the best Christmas gift I have ever received. I fooled everyone I have met but finally I found you who could see what in my soul and try your best to help me. To me that's the most intimate and happinest relationship one can ever have.
You won't come across my mind from time to time, you will reside in there. I haven't accepted our relationship for real and neither do you. But I indulge myself in our imaginary world and I am a billionaire there.
Let's hold each other's hand and walk our journey together... What's meant to be will come someday because love will find it's way.

Love,

me (((hugs)))

Jade said...

A game that I won when I found you...

I am not like the others. Those who have gone only to leave gaping scars on your heart. Everyone you have loved has hurt you and you suffer from such a deep level of fear; you will find excuse after excuse not to be happy in love again.

My wish is that you will someday realize I have nothing but deep and unconditional love for you. We are in some strange level of harmony beyond what most people have and we both are afraid. The difference, I trust you unconditionally as well. Maybe, someday you will be able to trust in me too.

Patience is a virtue and for some reason our paths crossed and we both have been through hell in our lives. When we met, neither of us had what we sensed was possible to give, now…we both have the opportunity to give what we wanted to each other. This is not a game of chance, there is no way to stop caring when the heart is involved. In fact, the more of your pain and fear I see, the more I am patient and my love for you consumes my own heart and soul.

I know that this love I carry for you, will in the end, cause me the greatest pain I will ever know. Yet in some perverse way it will honor US more than anything else, because it will be the only measure stick to the love that exists between us. So every time you hold me, dance with me, and kiss me…I willing accept how much this will hurt and I know I will pay that price willingly, gladly and lovingly every day for the rest of my life.

MINZXC . said...

i'll let you win if it makes you happy. but deep down inside you should know none of us won this love game because you still care, but you don't show it, just because you want to win.

Anonymous said...

I am sorry to say then that I have lost this game not once, but twice...because I am and always will be in love with you...

And I know now...you do not feel the same...

Torn apart

Anonymous said...

I love, I hate, I fear, I need, I want, I scream silently... Can you hear me?

Anonymous said...

I'm lonely. I don't understand why you torture me the way you do. But I wait patiently for the day when I can look into your eyes and feel your hands in mine. You say you do not see me, but you are the only one I see. It hurts, it breaks my heart everyday.

Anonymous said...

It's so bittersweet. Our hearts have merged and cannot be separated, thanks to luck and fate. But still I have so many unanswered questions. Not the least of which is - will I see you again? If so, when? I don't hold any regrets regarding actions or inactions either but I want to know what you know that you want, deep down. I want to understand the source of all of the heartsickness you have dealt with that has contributed to moulding your most innate fears regarding love's renewal.

You found a window by which to view my existence. I love it when you throw little pebbles to get my attention. It let's me know how much you care. I too trust that love will find it's way. In the meantime, while I wait and think about all that I would ask about you, given the opportunity, I sit and wish I had further access to just such a window into you.

P.S. I would also ask what are some of the little things that you speak of that annoy you. I might be more malleable than one might assume. I miss you and love you and as always you know just where to find me should you decide to. This is no game to me. It's as real as the stars in the sky.

Love,
me

Anonymous said...

I want you, all for myself... But I am scared to lose you. I can't live without you. The more I feel this way, the more fear I have... I have been thinking of you constantly since the day you left. I still remember that uneasy feeling that stirred my heart during that week I was away for conference, the week you left. My heart ached for you... It feels like it just happened yesterday. When will I be brave enough to go find you? I don't know. But I need you more than anything else and I can feel you so close to me, so real... Part of you is living inside me, and promise me you will never leave me, I am so scared to be alone...
Love, <3

Anonymous said...

I don't have any fears about renewal I just know I can't and do not want to lose you. I've tried to let you go and everyday it's the same feeling of inadequacy having the indefinable urge to reach out for you. I miss you every second of every day and more as time goes by. That is the heartsickness I live with on a daily basis and I know it's having a major effect on you too. I've been hurt very badly in the past which is why I tried to let you go once before, but it is different with you because I don't believe you will hurt me like others. I don't want to be a quitter...I know what I want and need and it's you and I will do whatever it takes. That may scare you. I don't want you to have feel pressured or be afraid that you will in one way or another hurt me because of what you did or didn't do. I know you say you don’t have regrets about actions or in-actions, but I know how hard you are on yourself and I don't want that to affect our relationship.

The window you speak of is bittersweet in itself. Do not worry, do not feel self-conscious. There is nothing you could do or say that could make me love you any less. Ask me anything you want. There is not much that annoys me about you. Is there anything that I do that annoys you?

I will see you again. Fate has proven itself thus far. Please don't forget about me. Love, Me.

Anonymous said...

that's the thing, i don't want this to be a game. i don't want to win if it means i'll lose you. what a hallow victory that would be.

Anonymous said...

My Heart ,doesn't want to lose you ,although I believe you will always live with each beat of my heart .The Fear I once held inside me is not there ,I sometimes wonder where it disappeared too though ,Know it didn't disappear quickly.Though some where inside me ,there is a loss ,that I can not find you .

I am not someone that gives up ,I believe that about my self ,used to accept the way things goes in life some how this is a time I can not accept .

There been attempts in steps towards you although knowing those steps comes to something shut off ,that separates you and me .
I willing back off and retrace my steps away .

Leaving with thoughts ,lingering inside my Heart maybe one day you will find me .

Anonymous said...

My heart hears you,although I to am afraid .
Afraid ,you will turn away .
Afraid you won't see me .
I Love you so much ,Many things I understand ,when should just came normal for others ,It didn't with me .


So many I Love ,Tried to Listen to everyone .
Be there for everyone .
Till I couldn't be there for no one .
Not even for me .
There was no game to win or Lose ,not with Love .

First Time in My life ,I truly felt Love ,a love that stays within you ,grows with you ,makes you ,believe with all the Trust ,you have inside you ,for that one person ,that is inside you ,gentle Loving you ,as both Hearts are connected with each beat ,no matter how far away .

That never seems to fade ,only grow stronger ,much stronger than I ever Felt or believed existed .

Life keeps on going by me ,as inside I want to scream stop!
I don't belong here no more .
Everything inside me ,belongs with You .

I've been there so close ,could see you .
Wanted speak
I was afraid ,you stopped Loving me .

Emily Ann said...

I love how true this is.

zonedin said...

I don't care about the game, only you.

Love is all there is.

Anonymous said...

Tell the man I love...I love him with all of my heart.

Anonymous said...

I think you would be something I would be good at. Your my first thought when I wake up and the last before I fall asleep. My wish is that someday I can say I'm yours :-)

Inessa Hadjivayanis said...

I could never stop caring about you, but I could stoping caring about this. You stopped caring altogether anayways.

Anonymous said...

It's true.

Would you change? Knowing that.