Tuesday, February 1, 2011

The Leftovers






















I made myself from all the love you no longer wanted.

87 comments:

Tyron Bache said...

And now I am better than you could have ever imagined and better than you will ever have.

Alyaa said...

You have no idea how this heart breaks. Every single time.

Anonymous said...

Making assumptions is what caused hesitation on our behalf. This has nothing to do with me. It has everything to do with me and you. You let everyone else dictate. They say I don't need you and the worst part...you believe them. You want to talk about insecurities? Don't even get me started. You act like I don't know you. I'm numb. Instead of trying to make yourself, accept yourself, love yourself, come home to me.

Anon. said...

And now I have left no love left over to give you back. I am whole.

xo

Thea said...

Must be painful, sad, lonely. I sympathise. Your love will go to a deserving place. x

Anonymous said...

And I'm a better me than ever before. I'm exactly who I want to be, so thanks for breaking my heart.

magdalena viktoria said...

thank you for this...

Whatever said...

And I Lost myself in all that Love that I didn't know what to do with.

Anonymous said...

I'm feeling similar to you again, only different. How to go to a home that doesn't acknowledge your existence? At least not out loud. I'm still symptomatic. We both lost weight. Love. I hear about the little things I wish I could experience with you. I swear I can feel my eyes turn green. And then I don't feel pretty at all. Ashamed. What are we going to do? All I can think to do just now is toss you these scattered thoughts. I want nothing more than to continue our reciprocated love, until we form a solution. I'm wandering around in a foggy haze; mesmerized by thoughts of amber trails and several favorite Beatles songs.

Forever !!;!! said...

You've made me into something great..I want to share that greatness with you...But the love you never gave back..breaks my heart still..and will for a long time... i love you still

Anonymous said...

hahahahaha

Anonymous said...

I rebuilt myself on all of the love you pretended to give me.

Anonymous said...

Please find your way home to me. I promise to have every creature comfort imaginable just waiting for you. I promise to love you now and for always. I always leave the light on at the door. We need to seek as much sunlight as we are able to find. My heart still breaks for you. I wish the phone would ring. As always, I wait with crossed fingers and I shut my eyes and simply hope. XO

Anonymous said...

The imaginary love relationship. How much of it could I bring into reality? I am scared if I were a stranger to you cause a stranger isn't welcomed to the home I have been imagining...love.
How late is too late? Despicable Me.

Anonymous said...

You said you are something I will regret losing. Remember you haven't allowed me to spend a single hour with you for REAL, how come I can regret? But in our imaginary world never will we apart. Love <3

Anonymous said...

growing in your own love will make you even more capable of giving.

Anonymous said...

You know I could easily drown in your words and lose control, but I learned and everytime I remind myself that it's you not your words I want to be with... Your words are substitute when you are not here. Love <3

Smee said...

The words break something inside me. And lets out the decay.

Anonymous said...

The reality is that it's never too late for the truth that is Love. XO

Big Mark 243 said...

... but it doesn't matter to her. It never did, and now he begins to feel lightheaded and dizzy. The realization that it is over and this is the last time he see her hit him like a line shot off a baseball bat. Her eyes darkened as they emptied of any emotions they may have held. She didn't care about him then and amazingly, she cares about him less now...

Maggie May said...

ahhhh

Anonymous said...

There's no denying that it was a Dangerous Summer, so Reach for the Sun.

I'll find you there...

Anonymous said...

...and now i am a better person

xXxGiaxXx said...

reading all of that broke my heart.

xXxGiaxXx said...

reading all of that actually broke my heart a little more than it was. I feel your pain.

zonedin said...

In my view its "all the Love you never wanted."

Anonymous said...

You are so dramatic. You claim that I am the cause of this drama but I am convinced that you enjoy your own pain because if you want me you know exactly where to find me. And I am exactly where I want to be. You also know of my illness and the way I break apart under stress. Do you realize how far away from myself you took me? You also brought me back. I can never decide whether I should be thankful or irate. Maybe both. Slap you hard across the face then cover it in kisses. What else is new? In any case, I hope you know you are always welcome.

cartographerofyourhair said...

at the time, i was building the pieces of me and creating a larger-than-life wall around the parts i didn't want you to see. i never realized that the scraps you left behind would be the perfect shield to keep the world out. being abandoned never made me weak or unwanted, it made me precious and wild. it isn't the world keep me out, it's me keeping out the world. one day, you'll understand. one day, i'll let someone in and you'll remember how you betrayed me and regret it.

Anonymous said...

And you made yourself from the thought of it.

Anonymous said...

I wanted it.
I want it still.
Realize that I still want you.
That lying is easy, and the pain runs deeper than my tears or my words.

Anonymous said...

can you hear my voice
as you read these words?
I made myself from all
the love you no longer wanted
my heart was the leftovers
it kills me to remember things
your kisses your words your touch.
i miss you. and it kills me to know
you don't miss me back.

Anonymous said...

i gave you everything i was, am, now. you made me better and made me want to be better. now you're gone. you said you needed to find yourself to find me. but when you're away from me, you get lost, dont you realize you find yourself with me, us?

you push me away yet you call me, when i come visit, you never want me to leave. i still love you so much yet i feel i need to crush my heart, to feel numb so i can move away from this. to remove myself to be there for you as for you, you always want the best of both worlds.

this is unfair. if you push and pull on a rope of our hearts like this, it will eventually break. just like i have.

Anonymous said...

You have provided me an enormous amount of love in this life thus and for that I am eternally grateful. There is no reason to overstate the obvious, meaning the painful part of quasi absence. I believe you truly do love me, as I know that I love you. I stood ready and willing to run away; to begin life anew - with you. I'll admit that to an extent I feel frustrated because I never intended to reveal the extent of my flaws and negative behaviors to you - at least not as quickly as they "revealed themselves."

In relationships past I employed a "method" of retreat and hide, the theory being that I might make him miss me by laying low for awhile. I did that because it seemed to work. (Tell your roommate to say that you aren't there and soon after you receive more love.) Why am I telling you this? I don't really know. Maybe with you it feels more complicated. I never know from one moment to the next whether I'm off or on my "game." Why play games? I don't know. I think that is just the deal with love, right? A crucial part, one might argue. What is on my mind today is one burning question. You have stated that my role in this love of ours has caused you to feel hate and anger, in addition to the beautiful emotions. And I wonder when and I wonder why. So that I can do something about it. Anyway, I love you and I miss you, as always. XO

Brittany said...

But they will never find the love they lost.
The love you were willing to give.
The love you have saved for a single person.

You build a heart for someone, only for it to be taken from you.

Sometimes I think love isn't worth it.

Anonymous said...

Honey, you are so wrong... I don't enjoy my pain but I love the fact that we get even 11:11 FOREVER :)
XX everywhere...I can't do a good job with pain... I have to get it fixed first. Not excuse again... Fact :)
Love <3

R. L. said...

You were made in pieces.

amelia said...

And now i build my self from all the wound you gave me.. And see im much better with it..

Anonymous said...

This flying pig will be waiting for you always and forever, with arms open for you, only you. Love<3

Alex said...

It was never mine to have and it was never yours to give. My heart is too damage for that, my trust to worn out. So don't blame me for it. I was to broken to understand your gentle words, so kindness was foreign to me. I am not able to get it back

Alex said...

It was never mine to have, or yours to try to give to me. My damage heart was too foreign to such kindess, i couldn't understand or fathom what you meant. I still don't. So don't blame me for being to broken to accept all the things you did and said. you just didn't understand.

Anonymous said...

You're in my heart. We have plenty of time. Never leave. Forever yours. Me.

Anonymous said...

She had sold him fake love. What a whore!

offres d'emploi au maroc said...

Owww, sad pic :)

Maria said...

i'm glad i found this blog. :)

Daanish said...

and the story goes on,a love story :)

Anonymous said...

Admittedly gullible. Okay, okay. You got me there. You still didn't answer my question. But that's okay and I'm not surprised. Perhaps and hopefully in due time. I have grown accustomed to the delightful, painful, vain wait. I will say this - Even if the topic is as arbitrary and silly and every bit as mundane as a blooming onion… Well. If it means I can tell that you are still "here," with me, then I can tell that I still have many obvious reasons to continue to smile. I want you closer; always. But more than anything I always need you "here." I feel so close when we are together. XO

Anonymous said...

Whatever you think of me is only true to yourself. I have flaws, not whole lot but some major ones. I can't face you without defeating them. I want you to feel proud and glorious because of me. I tried very hard but you, yourself are my biggest obstacle :(
Why can't we seek other solutions that are agreeable to both of us? Anyway, I am trying on my side...
Love<3, flying pig

Anonymous said...

But then, it was your love that has taught me all along. Perhaps it was what once had led me back to myself as well. I know I've hurt you to the core. I thank you for your patience. I beg of your forgiveness-I couldn't show you the same at the very least.
How I wish we could go back to zero, as you said, at least it would be better than a minus. For you're too good a friend.
Wish you well.

Anonymous said...

i still love you with all the pieces of me but i know it´s better this way. we would have destroyed each other baby.

Anonymous said...

Question of the day. What the hell is ego and where the hell did it come from? Like originally? Some foreign alien entity that feeds off the negative energy on planet earth? It tries to destroyy our light. It will not succeed! :) best friends forever? 11:11

I am helping you fix it. Can you feel it? I am doing my best to send lots of love your way. Heaven on earth? Just waiting :)

Anonymous said...

I feel very sleepy... I don't know how you can deal with this, but I need to sleep for a whole week to make up for the late night talks we had.
Ego, my biggest problem :( I react to you but I respond to others. We are a good match, keep it up buddy!
Waiting at the office to get my tooth fixed... It got a little better though.
Love <3

Anonymous said...

I hate you because you have been trying everything to get me to do something I CANT. Please honey, find another way, I am begging you ....
Love<3

Anonymous said...

11:11

Anonymous said...

It's not my decision. It's your decision. One of us has to lose or both of us have to change. You are my dream yet you are the biggest obstacle to make my dream come true. Love is a disease, and you are my only drug. I feel you in my soul. Love<3

Anonymous said...

Dangerous summer is a lie. I told you not to lie to me. Miss sunshine you know exactly where to find me. More importantly I know where to find you. I think it's time to exchange a few words.

Take me to the garden love.

Anonymous said...

I wish I knew what to do baby. I still don't understand. Both of us have to change. My heart is singing to you calling you home. You asked me what am I trying to do to you? You know exactly what. I will change us both. I know you feel it. Why can't you? I don't understand. I will change us both. Nothing is going to stop me. This morning I was made of diamonds. Its all for you. I will change us both. I know you feel what I am doing. I won't stop. I want my king. :) I won't settle for anything less. I won't stop.

Anonymous said...

I don't want to be that kind of temptation to you. I never wanted to, however you think that way... I guess it's time for me to say goodbye now. I want to be a decent guy at least. Talking pig

Anonymous said...

You worry too much.

Anonymous said...

I speak from my heart that's why I am good at saying right words at right times. Honey, not even you could change that. Me. <3

Anonymous said...

I had pride. I still have but it's the fear that really stops me from running to you. Love you from a distance. Me.

Anonymous said...

Honey, there are no broken promises, just not the right time.

Anonymous said...

"Time will dissolve the truth"

Anonymous said...

I am thinking maybe I am an alien...but I am a human being. I need you to understand my struggle. Me

Anonymous said...

I feel the same as you except the fear ...

sanaa syed said...

i was the best u cudve have had, i was broken but now that i rebuilt myslf u'll never gt me back.one day,whn u realize tht u'll never find anyone like me,its gonna be too late,it alrdy is.

Anonymous said...

love turned to so much fear ,that pushed me to escaping ,moving far away ,not wishing to ever see your face again ,hear your voice .

though time ,never wished harm ,the damage was already done .

picking self up ,all the broken pieces not just my heart ,those in my life ,that got mixed up in such beautiful mess.

through love ,we understand and grown through all this .

sorry baby ,that my heart and all my desires of how i truly loved you ,could not be shown by my hands of creation for fame and glory as you done in honor of me .

baby ,look at this way ,the love that was true or not true ,all the suffering and pain ,created ,trust ,everything ,the many tears ,

baby ,you took all this and created a life for own self ,to become amazing better person .

For someone knew ,that in hopes a love shall not ever hurt you ,as even she will feel the glory and fame too

will always love you baby

Anonymous said...

though my heart is many things ,there is a love inside me ,i know now .

will never match to the love that beats with your own heart .

I don't enjoy my pain but I love the fact that we get even.

creation is waiting for just you ,only you ,new journey and new love ,that you have placed all out there ,go and be happy finial,there shall never be anything more in my heart ,the love for you .

that just want your happiness and to find that love ,you so dearly searched for and deserve ,no matter how one goes about getting it .

your the better person baby
go be happy together
with that #1

all this heart desires for you honey

Writer Girl said...

I let you in. I let you in and told you things I've never been able to speak about before. And I thought you understood me. I thought you understood. I thought you understood I had to protect myself, because no one had protected me when I was little. I thought you understood that I am vulnerable and that I need to protect myself fully before letting you in completely. I thought you were okay. I thought we were okay. But you never uttered a word, and you have yet to speak. You left me wondering what the hell I did wrong. You left me sick and broken. I miss the friend I had before, but there is no looking back. We loved and I lost... but I am moving on. Goodbye my almost lover.

-LyS- said...

me too, and it's just so hurtful :(

Anonymous said...

perhaps I was too perfect for you.
Not in a oh so pretty, proper and prim way,
but in the way that meant I loved you regardless of all your flaws. I simply loved you--and that was too perfect a thought for you to understand and appreciate.

Anonymous said...

perhaps there was never really a love that you ever held ,as your search never stopped and now attached as we are in simple meaning that was never sacred .

you have replaced this so called love with another so easy ..
wish you best with love that comes in few days of Canada

maybe then you will just let me go and stop beating upon my heart and hurting so deeply

my feelings do count too

Anonymous said...

You're excused go take your number two. Remember to close the lid this time when you're finished. Me.

Anonymous said...

I'm always number one to you.

Anonymous said...

I'm waiting.

Anonymous said...

You are perfect. What about her? What would she say if I came to practice? She runs the forest and I would not want to irritate her. I need peace. I would really love to see you. Can I practice in black? Would you let your long beautiful hair flow free?

Anonymous said...

Se eu fosse estrela, brilharia até mesmo durante o dia - brilharia onde quer que você estivesse. Se eu fosse gota, cairia em forma de chuva em todos os lugares - cairia sempre que você quisesse. Se eu fosse vento, sopraria o tempo inteiro - sopraria para encher seus dias com meu perfume, só pra você não esquecer que nunca te esqueço. Se eu fosse palavra, seria seu nome - assim veria seu olhar a cada vez que me pronunciassem. Não sou nada disso... Sou só garota. Então brinco de ser poeta pra ver se você gosta dos meus versos..

Anonymous said...

our love was a mix of conditions
favorable temperature and pressure,
of bitterness and disillusionment.

Anonymous said...

drama, comedy, science fiction,
horror, animation, fairy tale,
fable, action, adventure, suspense,
Crime, reality, erotic fantasy.

I met you was like reading a thousand books
and soak in all the stories.

Anonymous said...

You there wanting attention, and I want you here.
You want new experiences there and I want you.
Then you want the world, and I want you.
You want to drink more, and I want you.
You want a way out and I want you.
You want to make friends, I want you.
You want to be happy, I want you.
You want to rest, and I still want you.
You want a bit of everything and I still want you.
Only you.

Anonymous said...

You there wanting attention, and I want you here.
You want new experiences there and I want you.
Then you want the world, and I want you.
You want to drink more, and I want you.
You want a way out and I want you.
You want to make friends, I want you.
You want to be happy, I want you.
You want to rest, and I still want you.
You want a bit of everything and I still want you.
Only you.

Anonymous said...

But tell me soon so I can vacate the heart. Told you not give any more signs of life. And do not give. It is no longer possible. I will not feed on illusions. I prefer to acknowledge with utmost ease possible that I'm alone than to be postponed at the mercy of visits, meetings transferred

Anonymous said...

I told you how I feel. The best feeling in the world to a poet is not having to write my words for you to read. Listen.

Anonymous said...

Words I share with you. Me.

Anonymous said...

But now sometimes in the dark of night when loney seeps in through the cracks I wonder if having you was better than having no one.
I keep wishing and hoping, I know that one day someone will come and wipe all that pain away.
I'm terrified that day will never come and I'd have lived my life walking in the shadow of your rejection, my shame and growing futile desperation.
Why couldn't you have just loved me? Why do I still care?

Anonymous said...

this made me cry, because i can relate. every freaking day of my life, i am like this, trying to make my self whole again.

emploi said...

i wrote this comment for u lol :p thank u ;)

Anonymous said...

I still have all these love for you, but you'll NEVER have them. They'll be locked up forever in a vault in the deepest part of my heart until I join the earth as one.