I never fell in love with you. I just fell.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
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I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn’t get it. They may think they get it, but they don’t. This is the sign you’ve been looking for. You were meant to read these words.
but you won't keep me down.
i will rise stronger than ever.
<3 goodbye shm.
Yes and no. Sometimes I do feel like I have.. and I don't know, and now that you put it into words I am doubtful yet comforted that I'm not the only one having those thoughts.
I know we react-people are annoying - we always think we understand - but I just want you to know how important you are to me.
I hope you heal.
And that fall has been my way to rockbottom, and also my way back up. Thanks a lot! :)
these are the exact words i needed to hear.
Your words are perfect.
You have an amazing talent for opening wounds and wrenching emotions.
You never caught me when i fell :(
Oh I will always believe I fell in Love and Still Love You .
If only you had caught me.... it may have been different.
I'm still falling now, I'm beginning to wonder if there is any bottom to this at all.
I totally understand... sometimes we are so caught up and don't even know what it is, but we know we're not in love. Still, it doesn't stop all the side effects of falling in love.
this is absolutely correct.
only I can't decide if this is a comforting thought or not.
There's nothing to catch you when you fall, just life waiting for you to swallow your sorrows and find a rock to hold onto
I am falling for you each and everyday. You are so wrong to think that I am trying to break steel. I never wanted to. I am a fearful person and you never speak to me. I am scared to go on my own... I wish you could understand my fear. Me.
I hope you heal too. Arent you glad that we are even? I don't know I should laugh or cry, but i want to do both... No, there's no bottom of this. You and I willbe falling forever. Me.
Relax! I will never leave you. You should know me by now.
When I pig askes for a party, she wants balloons...Talking pig Love. Me
Why did I have to fall?
When I flirt with someone else. I assume she is you cuz thats the only way I can flirt with you. I wish there was a bottom to catch both of us...Love. Me.
I thought I fell in love... it wasn't until after that I realized all I did was fall.
Why, you may ask?
Because he wasn't there to catch me
I'll rise again, but he will always miss me
And life truly is unfair. I'm still spiraling down the bottomless pit. Is it to late for you to catch me? You are able to pinpoint my exact location, this I know. I've waited so long now. I cannot let hope go. <3
X (Blows palm westerly.)
maybe that's why i don't miss you when you're gone. maybe that's why i'm not yearning to hear from you. i love this idea of happily ever after but maybe not with you. maybe when i hit the ground, i woke up.
Down, down, down.
Into the darkness you had waiting to capture me right at the bottom.
Im underneath it all.
i never fell in love, it kicked my ankles out and
stepped on my ribs.
And just because I haven't gotten back on my feet again doesn't mean I'm not alright, I have no intention of staying down there.. I just need some time, not you.
I never fell in love with you. I've always loved you. Those eyes. Me.
It is definitely love...and you definitely tried to catch me. I just didn't let you.
You would laugh at me ,to say we are even as if everything was only a game .
guess really deserve that one .
Flirting with another ,as to think it is a way to flirt with me ,that is not right ,for no one .
caught you ,though lost you ,still love you ,you now push me away .
only if i knew you wanted me come back or talk to me .
would be there catch you ,rest of your life.only knew you wanted that ,wanted me.
Those eyes ,would be your blue eyes ,that melt my heart.
don't wish to hurt you or me ,just get past areas towards the love we both know is still there ,only just knew.
I needed you to remind me of this today, thank you.
And to you... even though I'm down doesn't mean I need you. You are just a one, you are not the one to me. You were a mirage, something that was almost something, but was not. And I am not sorry to say that anymore.
your love is stale as much as your lies are .there is nothing in me that wants you ,keep falling
I didn't break your heart, and you didn't break my heart either. We just irritated each other too much that it feels intolerable. Sometimes I have the urge to get in a real fight with you. I swear I will win! You are just pretending that I tear you into pieces so you can win. Forgive me for such a terrible thoughts. I have to find an excuse for my fear :(
Hope someday we can meet each other one way or another.
Here comes Valentines that's supposed to be our day... You and me, US.
We are 1000 miles away from each other, but somehow you are within me. Love, Me.
The trouble is, you didn't realize it until it was too late.
The problem is, you didn't know it until it was too late.
I wish this weirdness would go away and you would come home to me and I would finally understand. I miss you so bad. I wish I could know how you do it. I just wish you could be here and I could not be scared because the love I feel is so big and all I want to do is show you. I just want you to feel it. It hurts that I can't make you feel better that I can't give you all this love in my heart. I hope you feel it somehow. I wish I could understand. Sometimes I feel like I did something and sometimes it feels like nothing happened and I hurt everywhere. I miss you. I love you.
Fell up toward the sky.
To much has already been said and done ,to think you placed everyone in stories and jokes ,including a your heart that still looked up to ,you is online and you hold nothing ,for any of them .
We are even ,goodbye
Can you tell me what it says on your foot?
You could never beat me in a fight, but I would let you win. If I really thought you wanted to see me I would swim across an ocean of broken glass. But only for you. I have never felt the way you make me feel.
place way down is where you have crawled ,though want say thanks for creating all these blogs in making me,popular with so many things ,it clearly shows the love that was never there and offers a smile .
falling was all you wanted to create not just for me ,for those in my family too ,just like the trust of small child .
Though as she sat today ,reading these interesting blogs ,that was placed out there in forms of all ,creating this love you felt for us .
This young girl ,today .
Finial saw the Love you always held for me and everyone .
Thanks for opening her eyes ,as She placed you on a pedestal.
Will always love you .
Didn't have to go these extremes ,though happy you did .
the Love you always shown has left a deep impact ,that stay forever .
will always believe ,you never love me ,as you to held words of many lies that you affected hearts with those lies .
will be stronger from this .
there was never a "us"
much less a "you and me"
love has way in truth that flows with time
this love over time has held something very clear in both our lives .
sorry baby ,my heart and love shall never become harden as yours has towards mine .
you accomplished so much in this time ,without me ,so keep up everything ,no words are needed between you and me .
all the silence and fame and glory ,why honey ,that tells a truth in all the stories created by your hands .
A love will always be in me for you ,that no one shall have back ,it's mine .
even if i love you and love doesn't get returned .my heart knows it still never go low to create something of own self ,out the pain .
sorry baby ,just not me .
Two people on the ground can't help each other up. When someone picks you up, I hope you won't forget to turn and pick me up.
But you will.
Yes, honey I feel your love and I am still drawn in it. I love you and I miss you. Yes, hope this weirdness passes soon and I feel thrilled to go home to you. No fears no doubts, just love. Kisses, Love, Me.
I'm falling in love with you more and more each day. Catch me. Hold me. Fall hard. Don't be afraid. I am madly in love with you. Me.
When can we see each other? It's a torture to be apart. I am feeling like a walking dead without you. I am here but I am there with you. Me.
Sometimes you dont seem a real person to me, you are a pure dream, my dream. I am thinking Maybe things Would be different if i had had a chance to see or talk to you before you left. Maybe I wouldn't have this much fear. We are the Murphys. Love<3
I tell myself I don't need this, I don't want this. I tell myself that I don't need this so-called-love.
But my heart aches.
I can always relate to this kind of feeling. I have loved and always fall for the wrong reason.....I always give all of me and never leave anything for me...but now I realized I have to move on ....It will never be my lost....it's theirs!You are so important to me nevertheless...you are who you are to me!
Past is past, but that's the time I had courage to try. I miss that. I was more thrilled than scared. Sometimes I feel I am alone in this because nobody understand me and it's a terrible feeling. The sad thing is even you don't have a clue about this feeling I have for you. Love is the language that two speak and only the two can understand. I wish someday you could Undrstand and forgive me for being so scared. I don't know when I will recover from this, maybe for a very long time because I will always love you... I wouldn't be scared if I didn't love you. Kisses. Love, Me.
Yes, you give me the kind of feeling that people write in novels too. I cherish that. It's the most precious gift I have ever received. I am even jealous of myself:)) Miss butterfly <3
I've been sending you Valentine's each day for years. Sometimes I worry they have been lost in the mail. I hope this one won't be. I love you more than I can explain. I promise to keep expressing what is truly in my heart. You are so strong and confident, but underneath the firm exterior I know how much you long to be told that you are loved. You are. I wish you to know that I am always by your side, even if not in the physical sense. For you, my Love, dutifully I pledge to keep the Valentines coming... XO <3
And I am still falling. Especially on dark nights like this where I wonder where you are and who you are with.
My car, my favorite place, the place I spend time exclusively thinking of you, my baby. It's filled with my joy, tears and of course numerous fantasies. Both of us have to change. I am in chains but you have the key. I want to be in that cozy cave and free:) only you could make that happen. Please don't make me go the other way.
We would make the world stop if we were together :)
Write me something.
I am feeling very tired today thinking about the days I have to live without you being my side. When willthis end? I want an answer from you. I love you and you know this. You like to twist it around just to get your way. I know you are right regarding US, and I know I am a loser from the very beginning. Hope one day I can overcome this fear and happily surrender to be the biggest loser.
I live on those Valentine letters you have been sending me every day. Kisses on your lips <3
...A love will always be in me for you ,that no one shall have back ,it's mine...|
Maybe that love wasn't yours to begin with? Me.
When I first met her I had a goal. But everytime I was around her, I would start to melt. She is beautiful and really smart. I was afraid of rejection. I wiped out but came out unscathed. I really miss her. She conveyed to me she was disinterested. It was brutal. I would love to see her smile again.
You were right - it didnt work. I will listen to you next time. Will you run away with me? We could hit lightspeed and head for the stars. Will you hold my hand?
it is the worst when you're falling and you know it but you can't stop. or you don't want to. or you can't tell which.
I fell so far, beyond the tomb, beyond the unknown. Finding anything familiar is all I do to cling and survive. Anything to make me smile, I grab hold and squeeze so tight! I know you're not there to catch me, because the one who's in love is for blue eyes and I don't have blue eyes.
The question is, do you want to run away with me? The space between my fingers is meant to fit yours, but you didn't let me hold your hand for real, somehow I manage to feel you anyway. Will you run away with me? Dancing penguin <3
my darling ,you were never there to ever hold my hand as i was falling ,i kept falling ,you kept retreating to only be there for self .
though now know you will never be there to catch me when i fall
so nothing has ever changed
you always wanted me to fall over and over to there was nothing left to be known ,it brought you pleasure to see ,me hurt so .
created you a better person
though this strange heart of mine still loves you .
foolish hearts in love ,creates only a dream that never came true
lost love ,remove it before you ever start another
how sad hearts can be
must be one for you ,only days counting
a life that holds much potential to creating open doors to make you a better person and better life as you ,place self in their creation and call in pride once again
a creation that becomes all yours by using someone's life to becomes yours ,once again
never creating something of you without those needed crutches .
many ways of love that speaks true only becomes simple need in stepping stones
as all my sighs are for you too
as i know those simple needs to prove even to family ,always trying prove
Canada blue eyes of love that has the heart now
It's never a game, however, we made it look like a game. Wish I were next to you so I could kiss you before you say goodbye. I'd say see you later, love. Me.
I am foolish enough to fool myself. Thanks honey.
your love is dangerous especially if you get hurt
Ok then, if you never fell in love with me and we never run away together, then I just want to be alone with my memories.
I'm not giving you back. I'm not replacing you. You may think that because I'm friendly, but it's always been you.
P.S. In case you wondered, I am never Anonymous and never is a very strong word.
I probably would run away with you. If what I feel for you is love, then I guess I fell in love with you. It happened that first day at the counter. Every day I saw you I would feel so good inside. You brought a new light to my art and I loved it. I get nervous around you because you are so beautiful. I was under a lot of pressure, my best friend died and I freaked out. I made a dumb decision. I had known him since almost birth and he was like a younger brother to me. It was hard to deal with at the time. Also, the reason I met you is because I was not wanted where I was. I don’t want to be at a place where I am not wanted. I also really wanted to do my own thing. – I didn’t have a job had just gotten a felony. I didn’t expect to meet someone as perfect as you. I wanted to spend some time with you but you didn’t want to.
This whole thing has been real confusing.
You are really sexy and Im sure you have a boyfriend. Im real sorry I didn’t stay and I would like to come back. I just want to know you would want that. If not, I understand. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and that just scratches the surface. I really wanted to be close to you. I thought you were going to hate me when I found out what was going on. I think about you every day and I only want to be with you. No one has ever made me feel like you do. I could spend the rest of my life with you. I hope I see you again someday.
Thanks honey. My head feels much better after seeing you here. The inviserble is very tough. Forgive me that I am not brave enough to go agaist the rules. I don't know why this weirdness exists. I crave for your hugs and I would stay there until your arms get sore for holding me there. Embarrassing. Promise me when you see me someday, SMILE. I would keep hiding in my shell if you didn't. I miss you. It's painful to be away from you. XOXO
I should like to eat pizza with you at 4am, sit in your car drinking beer, discussing joy, change, fear and making new memories.
The last time I called you, I got cut off because I have a terminal case of shitty phone. I left a message "Call me back if you want to." You must not have wanted to.
I also have an incurable case of the hopeful romantic. Some people call it crazy, I like to call it 'open to possibility'.
there was no love to any of these years,
there shall be within you something dark that shall never change ,though you will shine out to the world
all will think they know you
though they will never know you enough
though you do
i am free of this hold upon my heart finialy
Now I can truly say Good Bye and Never look back .
donna ,dove123, murillo,profile,smiling,knew you had it in you and want let you know ,it really makes me very happy now .
now then it shall be the final goodbye
have wonderful life ,
Life from here on shall be wonderful!!!
Now I believe in my own soul ,that i can let go ,as all in this world ,there shall be a known fact ,that there was never a love ,all the blogs in the world and cruel cold things you shall write about my own family or me ,really does not bother me no more .
only shown me everything of the person ,you really are and shall always become and all the pretty words in the world ,or How wonderful you shall ever portray your self ,shall always be deep down ,the same inside .
have a nice life .
hey at least you got a amazing dog out the end .
Really never could of believe you could ever stooped as so low as create such lies about my own mother or family ,guess that goes to show ,I would of never ,done that ..
smiling ,treat her right ,and her kid too .
I miss you. Find me please.
I wish I could get you to come out of your shell. I bet we could talk for hours and be friends. I know its a cheap trick but I want you to want me.
I do want you and yes you can get me out of shell, but not this way. There's a way that you know, but you will never do it. Blah
I don't just want you I need you. I broke through my shell long ago. Vulnerable; exposed. Why are you still in hiding so far away? Turn towards me this time... We can work it out.
You told me you were not interested. Sting me to change my mind.
I dont hide. I need you too. Let me meditate for a day.
You have a personal invitation to my soul. Darkness into light. Let's stay here for a while. Just you and I.
To be full of hate and love is not loving at all. There is only peace for you here in my heart.
And when I fall i will rise.
I didn't mean to fall. I told you it would happen, that I had a habit of doing it. I don't know if it was actually love or not. I thought it was, but you didn't catch me, so I guess we'll never know. Either way .... it still hurts.
Sometimes I feel I am alone in this because nobody understand me and it's a terrible feeling.
Maybe I need more than just a writing, just a photo, just a text.
I'll catch you; i promise..
Yes, I guess, I just did.
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