Monday, July 11, 2011

The Absence Of Sunlight













If I'm nothing to you, then I'm not. And If this doesn't feel like anything, it isn't.

27 comments:

becomingherself said...

Stunning photography - I wonder which comes first: the imagery or the words? They always seem to blend so perfectly.

Anonymous said...

Feel me.. Im not a ghost in daylight.. One day if you realize, maybe im no longer here..

Big Mark 243 said...

I don't remember talking to ANYONE much less a South African about Nebraska and me... so I am wondering 'how did you know?' that is how our relationship has metathasized..?

Anonymous said...

I just opened your page by accident, because I love your quotes and I was depressed. & it just hit the nail on the head. It's EXACTLY what I'm going through right now.
Thank you.

Anonymous said...

You belong to the night. I'll light your way.

Anonymous said...

You need not be concerned, as you are my light and solace.

cartographerofyourhair said...

I am everything to you. That's the worst part, because you can't even speak of it. I am everything to you but you say I'm nothing. I'm nothing am I? Then why do you return to me every time? If I'm nothing, just stop coming back. Stop. For me, it doesn't mean anything anymore because I can't feel you. I can't feel anything for you or towards you, not even anger. So this isn't a relationship or even a friendship. It is nothing.

Anonymous said...

It's that moment that's so quiet, so still. And then, the light breaks the silence and the birds join in. And you are blessed with this miracle everyday <3

Anonymous said...

This is exactly what I have thinking all day.

Anonymous said...

If without you I do not exist, I will merely hold my breath...

Broken

Anonymous said...

Even if you feel like it matters, it still doesn't.

icel said...

beautiful... love it!

Kate said...

That picture is beautiful! And this is like my life. I just wish some guys would get it.

Anonymous said...

I looked at the post. Started to continue down to the next. Stopped, came back to this one. And stared at it for a while. It describes a painfully complicated feeling, and it's exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you.

Whatever said...

oh but darling You ARE. And the way that it's put feels like it could mean anything to anyone or everything every way I want it.

Anonymous said...

But if you give me, just a glimmer of hope, just a glint of promise. I will hold on to it until as if it's the only thing keeping me alive.

http://dearrabbit.tumblr.com/

Anonymous said...

Not anything to me. Sorry. I love staying cool in the shade.

Savannah said...

Oh, but it does, you just don’t know it
You never really knew, and I was there
Lurking through your hair, through your thoughts
I was there, not now, not anymore,
Can’t stand the light, I dim the sunlight in the day, to feel alive
Then when I go to take a bath... later I’m not sure if I’m alone,
I’m not sure I can think,
And I don’t know what happened to my clothes,
Where are they, so I go out naked in the world
Yet no one can see me and I’m scared to fly,
What if the wax will melt and my feathers leave my wings
And no one would know where I fell...
Would you then find me ?

Anonymous said...

Everything and Nothing
July 18, 2011
- In Validation -
If I was of no interest to you,
why seek me out?

If you felt no connection,
why let me in,
even if only for a little while?
You don't share family videos with strangers.


Especially not that one.


If you detested my queries,
why did you reply thoughtfully?


If we had nothing in common,
why lead me to new finds?


If you didn't want me to grow,
why challenge me constantly?.


If you didn't want me to be interested in you,
why the jealousy?

If you wanted me to be interested why push me away?


If you found me perfect,
why seek to destroy?

If you found me flawed,
why not support?

If I am everything to you (and I don't believe for a minute that I am), why won't you talk with me?


If I am nothing to you,
why so much about projection about my feelings?


If you want me out of your life,
why so much bait?

If you are not here,
why are you reading this?

####


I don't believe you didn't care.

I don't disbelieve this was malicious sport.

I don't believe you are incapable of feeling nothing.

I don't disbelieve you are capable of feeling nothing.

I believe in your pain
presence
absence
horror
beauty
apathy
obsession
love
contempt
capacity
damage
spirit
emptiness
existentialism
insanity

I validate your validity.
I validate your invalidity.

I would not make love to you,
as an act of love.

I would spread my legs for you,
in the absence of love.

I love who you aren't.
I fear who you are.

I'm not lying.
Yes, I am.
No, I'm not.

Confused?
Don't be.

Because you and I both know
no matter who we are
in the bodies we inhabit
and the lives we blunder through
the love and beauty we make,
the hate and anger
we fail to suppress,
the fear and confusion
we engender,

none of this
has anything to do with
what our souls understand
without us.

Whatever that is.

Anonymous said...

To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.

Feel and feeling the sunshine <3

Anonymous said...

Let the sun shine. Love you, babe.

Anonymous said...

You mean the world to me.

Anonymous said...

For me there is only you.

Anonymous said...

And now there are dead spots and false notes emerging.

Anonymous said...

I don't want or need you. I want and need YOU.

Anonymous said...

false notes.
pick them up.

celebrate

Anonymous said...

Yes, with gratitude. Waste not, want not.