Friday, February 3, 2012

The Light From Frozen Graves













"But I just want to stop feeling."

"As far as I can tell, there's only one way to stop feeling and that's to die."

"That seems a bit drastic."

"It is drastic. Perhaps the most drastic thing there is. There are other ways to kill feelings, like drinking a lot or working hard, constantly, pushing those around you as far away as possible until there's no way for you to reach out to them but ultimately, the only way to completely stop feeling, forever, is to die."

"I'm not sure I'm ready for that."

"Good. You'll be a better person for it."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that the most interesting, amazing people I've ever met, the ones who influenced and shaped the universe itself, are the ones that felt too much but lived through it."

"That sounds hard."

"It is. It involves living."

28 comments:

Unidentified said...

Thank you, this made my day.

Brittany said...

This is spectacular.

To live is to love.

Francisco G. Rodriquez said...

This is me talking to myself most days. Very poignant and powerfully true.

http://crumbs-from-the-curmudgeon.blogspot.com/

Michelle said...

And it's totally worth it.

Tharangni said...

yea. living can be so hard at times.

Anonymous said...

It's when every breathe is a reminder of that sorrow, and the overwhelming fears pops in unexpectedly, manages to escape with your breath and grip on things. That's when it's the hardest. And that's when I find myself here, on this site, panicked, and searching for the words to remind me that I can handle this. Thank you.

klara said...

"It involves living..." Beautiful :) but somehow I still get the feeling people who want to kill themselves are seen as not strong enough to be those heroes who "live through it".

klara said...

"It involves living..." Beautiful :) but somehow I still get the feeling people who want to kill themselves are seen as not strong enough to be those heroes who "live through it".

Anonymous said...

I was contemplating suicide tonight. Until I read this.

Anonymous said...

I think
this just saved me.

Anonymous said...

Perfect timing.

Kerry Giangrande said...

don't stop.

Searcher said...

Been there... It's the hardest decision that you can make.. to continue to live, hopeful in the darkness that someday there will be light..

http://watching-the-world-go-by.blogspot.in/2006/05/sitting-at-crossroad.html

You just have to live long enough for it.. That's all.. just breathe in.. breathe out.. breathe in... breathe out..

Anonymous said...

I can't see it, I can't see why love is so needed in the world. Yesterday I talked to my mother and she told me about this man she's seeing- and has been seing for severly years now- who can't leave his wife. He's married. My mother and he have known each other since they were young. It's such a lovestory, or at least it could be, if it just wouldn't end in three persons being hurted.
But since this is real life, I think it will be just one more lovestory that fails. I just can't see it.

N. said...

One of your best. I love you.

Debarshini said...
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zonedin said...

I want to live!

Anonymous said...

Dying is hard. Living is harder.

You inspire my every day, don't ever feel like you aren't important.

There are probably thousands like me that in some small way, depend on you.

Because you really are a good person.

FeverDream said...

all i want is to stop feeling your presence. nothing more, nothing less. yet this too seems like i'm asking far too much.

Anonymous said...

Even when we are apart I am always with u in ur heart soul and body. I'd love to be lying next to all 3 this very moment

cat said...

It's a little scary how perfectly timed this post was. I've always felt like I felt too much. I'm trying to embrace it.

Rochelle said...

If everyone who contemplated suicide would strike up a conversation such as this, the rate would be so much lower... Ahh, this post means the world to me. Thank you.
RIP AEK

Anonymous said...

I don't know who you are. Where you are from. What you to do. But I love you!

Anonymous said...

Interesting how that's the way it is, huh.

Thank you.

tqgia2 said...

This entry is the only thing that is keeping me going right now.

JayThom said...

When i first read this piece as it was posted, I was a week into a 5 month trip away from home in NZ to the UK.

I never knew how much it would mean to me... until I came home again.
Thank you.

Intan Zzati said...

Whats the book title? Please.

Brianna Shockley said...

This is so beautiful and speaks louder to me than most words do.
Thank you for existing and letting me know I'm not entirely alone.