Monday, November 7, 2011

The Garbage I Became













Now the TV's on at 3am and you're sleeping on the couch, because you can.
Now the plate is where you left it, no one else is going to move it for you.
Now the politics of blankets are gone.
Now the people on the radio sound so far away.
Now you've got no plans when you wake up, just keep on keeping on.
Now the morning fades to light, to twilight, to night.
Now you rinse and repeat.
Now you remove the sleeve and remove the film.
Now you remove the sleeve and pierce the film several times.
Now dinner takes exactly 2:30 minutes.
Now the earth hurtles through the universe around a giant ball of fire.
Now none of your acquaintances know they're really your only friends.
Now none of your friends know they're just acquaintances.
Now you've got to get used to being alone, like when you're born, like when you die.
Now you're free.
Now you can do whatever you want.
You just have to do it alone.

29 comments:

Anonymous said...

I have to do it alone...because u have left me...and no one knows after all this while I had u by my side...

This person said...

This is... amazing. There are probably a variety of other similar words I can use to describe this, but... it's amazing. That's all I can really think of right now.

Sorry. I'm not imaginative.

Anonymous said...

I have to do it ''alone'' because you wanted me to be free <3
God is always there.

Diogenes Baena said...

I hope you don't mind if I quoted you on my blog (elementalview.blogspot). I couldn't resist... it's reflects totally my despair on certain current situations.
I'll take it down if you say so.

Casey said...

I follow you on twitter btw. And I saw your tweet.

You're not alone. My break up was a few days ago too. I hope you're holding up okay. Just rememeber, you're not alone. <3

zonedin said...

Choices

Anonymous said...

Be the strongest you can be... Take heart and take care. x

-V

Anonymous said...

disillusioned of love.

FeverDream said...

this makes me cry... i wonder if this is how my mother feels since my father's died..
and sometimes i wonder if this is how you feel since you've left me..
i can't breathe since i've been freed and i can't get use to this wrench in my stomach where the butterflies used to be, or the hole in my heart where your face once was. i won't say a word, but i wish you fought me every step of the way.

Anonymous said...

This is one of my favorites that you've ever written. My boy friend died a few years ago, and if I've ever been able to relate to a poem, this is the one. Hang in there <3

Anonymous said...

And now I really think you wrote this for me.

Manech said...

Some of these lines were brilliant. Some too were much too close for comfort.

Anonymous said...

and now i'm drowning in all the silence loneliness gives birth to.

Xeb said...

*sigh*

Me said...

My brother died a month ago, this gave me a lot of comfort. Thank You!

Anonymous said...

I think I've come to believe we're all alone. But, sometimes, we are able to reach each other.

Anonymous said...

Anon:

I used to feel like I was drowning in all the noise loneliness made.
But how alone everyone felt they remained made me all the more alone. And this made me feel more removed. This sort of became my death.

klara said...

This is very deep and thought-provoking...
I choose human relations above all, even if takes away a part of my freedom.
I hope I'll never have to be alone.

Anonymous said...

But you aren't alone. You still have me.

Anonymous said...

You have something no one else does. I hope you know that

steph said...

Existential loneliness.. We all experience it.

Anonymous said...

I needed that.

Be good to yourself.

Jesse said...

you made me cry.
but i needed it.

Anonymous said...

I'm not alone. Neither are you. Me.

Anonymous said...

Amazing. Somehow it explained what i feel at these days!

Anonymous said...

thank you for this. I've read your blog for years, battling to find words that portray what's going on in my head. I've seen the most beautiful words here, and i know this one post will be one i look back to often. thank you so much.

hachie said...

i left home a month ago. And yes, now i've got no plans when I wake up, but I just keep on keeping on.. I miss my everyday buddy. I wish I can be home sooner.

Anonymous said...

we choose to be alone because we're scared to be rejected. hope you find the courage to be with the people you truly care about who might be as scared and lonely as you are right now.

Anonymous said...

That moment of re-reading and re-feeling, the entry, the comment.

If I'm with me, I'm free.