Tuesday, September 25, 2012

The Dark Words You Walk Down At Night

This is why it hurts the way it hurts.

You have too many words in your head. There are too many ways to describe the way you feel. You will never have the luxury of a dull ache.

You must suffer through the intricacy of feeling too much.

19 comments:

Anonymous said...

Though this hurts the worst, maybe that means it's the best kind of hurt

Jana's Indigo Moon said...

That would be way too much. Your writing resonates with me because it's as if I wrote it...

rockhead said...

Thank you. This is exactly why I feel how I feel right now.

FeverDream said...

the words manifest into dreams that do nothing but try their very best to kill me slowly, painfully..

there are a million ways to hurt and all of them turn into different scenarios late at night.

Anonymous said...

Hey...I was linked through a post from Tumblr..I just wanted to stop by and say the post was beautiful. I really, really loved it.

Ivy said...

This just captured my feeling right now. The consequence of hiding your lifelong feelings. You didn't even notice that it already hurts. Waiting.. for no reason. :/

Heartbreaking </3

Anonymous said...

Oh, no, you're surely mistaken. There is always a choice.

And the hurt that hurts the most, is the dull ache of choosing to instead feel the silence of nothing at all.

There is no luxury in a nameless hollow brand of ache. (We promised not to be ghosts)

Anonymous said...

But at least you walk down yours. Because this night time goes on and on and I'm alone in a poem that never stops flowing, a river of words, drowning in Knowing. It never quite ends does it?

I think it's probably different though, for you, when there are others fishing at your shores? Easier and more difficult, changing with the season.

Juli[e]a. said...

Love.

Anonymous said...

I wish I couldn't feel at all

MM said...

Great Thinking!
Words just never fail :)

Anonymous said...

I feel sad, how can these words change?

Anonymous said...

Every time I come to read a new post, it's as if we'd stayed up all night the night before talking ... you just know what's written all over my heart and soul.

MM said...

Great work :-)
There is a old latin proverb saying "Acta Non Verba". That helps to bring order over chaos.

Anonymous said...

"Amor ordinem nescit." -Saint Jerome


"Animadvertistine, ubicumque stes, fumum recta in faciem ferri?" -me to you

Anonymous said...

So what do I do?

Anonymous said...

Once you know you can never go back.
There's no middle ground?

Its doesnt seem to be fair but then again i have to think, it could be worse.


Anonymous said...


If it's there, even if it's damaged, you'll find a middle ground. Sometimes you gotta put your pride aside and try. It's up to you this time around though. I'm done searching.

Anonymous said...

I know. A surge of emotion went through me: relief. I needed to feel that too much, for far too long. It only validated another feeling I was trying to ignore.

I like this ground.

It's a pool lounger and I'm lounging; no longer waiting. There's no need for a middle ground. Take the middle out and you have a lifesaver; this is my life and it's not to be saved for later. By anyone.

I can't thank you enough, really. Take care.