Monday, August 10, 2009

The Bibliography Of Strings

And you taught me what this feels like.
And then how it feels to lose it.
And you showed me who I wanted.
And then who I wasn't.
And you ticked every box.
And then drew a line.
And you weren't mine to begin with.
And then not to end with.
And you looked like everything I wanted.
And then became something I hated.
And you get thought of every day.
And then not in a good way.
And you let me leave.
And then wish I'd stayed.
And you almost killed me.
But I didn't die.

85 comments:

c.e.z. said...

Thank you for writing this for me.

Eyra said...

From all the way in Singapore, thank you.

Anonymous said...

This just took my breath away
Amazing words

insidelingo said...

Perfect.

This makes me grateful for every love and every heartache I’ve ever experienced.

Anonymous said...

You have no idea how much I needed this. I've been so lost in emotions lately and this helped me put some of them into actual words. Through you, of course. It's just tough lately. Trying to win someone back who once loved you. Yet, seems to only see you as nothing anymore. I was meant to find this, and read this. Thank you.

The Boy Named Crow said...

Thank you!

Anonymous said...

Just like what i experienced.. He's not mine to begin with and now it ended in a bad way.

I love this writing..It expressed my feeling as well :)

jacq said...

Beautiful!

Sara said...

thank you for a post amazingly, perfectly written!

Alison said...

My choice would be death above the senseless destruction that ripped my soul apart.

Thank you for finding me.

E. said...

Jon's new camera?
I love it <3
and your words are as breathtaking as always.

love jones said...

I needed this so bad. It describes a relationship in my life that isn't the best thing for me, but this gave clarity and strength to move on.

Anonymous said...

You described my situation perfectly. Thank you.

Anonymous said...

Thank you. Your words; perfect aim, perfect timing.

Anonymous said...

wow this is beautiful. exactly describes every single emotion and feeling that is in my mind. thank you so much, i love you and yours words so very much. much love

Carrie said...

Wonderful. :)

samantha said...

ive one word to say, "Shit."
cos this just took my breath away. youve successfully put in print what we are so afraid of showing, letting known.

candiacrew said...

That was ideal. A rush of memories to break my heart, a breath taken away.

Thank you for making the pain in this World beautiful in it's way.

‌‌Mei Yan said...

definitely love it. great piece of work. :D

Anonymous said...

awesome(: describe my feeling awesomely perfectly.

Anonymous said...

You are such a gifted writer. I am amazed by how you are able to capture every emotion I try to drown out. You are truly truly awesome.

jesse lee said...

you almost killed me...
and at times it felt like you did.

But I know you didn't.

I'll be alive again someday.
someday soon.

P. Flowerpot said...

I have this thing with puzzle pieces. Just a repeating theme or metaphor of pieces of puzzles. And before it was about giving people those pieces but now i'm having to get them back from someone I gave too many to. And although I may not be able to get those pieces back. It's always nice to find ones that fit just the same.

And today you helped me get another piece back. And for this I thank you. The picture on my puzzle is getting clearer. I think it's of a girl who smiles all the time. And is starting to do so again.

Selah said...

I love this. Simple. Thank you :)

Willow Tree said...

This could be my anthem...

Blessings,
Carolynn

Anonymous said...

;-* thank you, you are so so beautiful!
i love you more than unicorns and rainbows!

ariana said...

This gave me shivers! And my heart is beating faster...thank you for making me feel :)

otherwise said...

*sigh, yes, love hurts

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Jude said...

*sad smirk* The Patron Saint thanks you.

aquarter said...

Beautiful words. Breathtaking picture. Thank you, jon and iain. Keep them coming. (:

otherwise said...

aside: this website reminds me of how generally lonely people are

Anonymous said...

I almost cried reading this. It strikes so close to home, but it's not over yet for me...maybe we'll end up together in the end. I can only hope

Anonymous said...

Thank you for writing this and being able to do what I cannot: putting my emotions into words. Thank you so much!!

BeccaLovesYou said...

This is my favorite post you've made so far.
It hits me right through my heart.







What did you mean, when you said it's destructive? And you sank yourself right into me.

Anonymous said...

Exactly. fuck.

Hope said...

And he did kill me.
He stabbed my heart, killed my soul.
Life means nothing to me anymore...

catchingacolder said...

Holy shit.
So beautiful.

"It's alright. No one's got it all."

you are here said...

and you get over it so fast...
and you don't care anymore...
and i love you still..

Anonymous said...

...like I did not realize it dear?..
well, I did
I mean it
Literally, by all mean

you are here said...

...and what's next???
will i still be guessing it???...
or are you gonna come and say it?..

Aella said...

This is incredibly beautiful.
I sometimes feel like this blog is a soundtrack to my life.
This is one of my favourite posts (of yours) ever. So - thankyou.

I might just her said...

...you knew it already, why dear..
A truth is a lie, when hurting is its collateral

why wait, for I wouldn't stay
why take it, for I couldn't say

this page only rectify your anxiety, and magnify your fear of infidelity..

I might just here, dear said...

...you knew it already, why dear..
A truth is a lie, when hurting is its collateral

why wait, for I wouldn't stay
why take it, for I couldn't say

this page only rectify your anxiety, and magnify your fear of infidelity..

Anonymous said...

you just really tore me apart!

Anonymous said...

I won't die, i won't

purplepink said...

oh yes you will...
cause you're good in facing what's
real about you...
c'mon...stop running away..

purplepink said...

oh yes you will...
cause you're not good in facing what's
real about you...
c'mon...stop running away..

Her Maldita-ness said...

OMG... The words swept me away. This is just how I really feel right now. I can relate to every line and every word. And how I also wish that my special someone would read this... then maybe I will also cross his mind.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for writing the words I couldn't find.

Anonymous said...

I hope that one day he'll arrive at this point. Because about a year ago, I was that "you". Except that I was the one who left. I'm sorry, not about the choice I made, but about the pain it caused.

If you come across this because you still read where I've linked it, you will know this is me, right?

~Rilke's Fiddle

Anonymous said...

beyond priceless...you find the words I couldn't fathom to say...thx.

Anonymous said...

amen.

Anonymous said...

sad part is.. whoever it was meant for will never see it.

Anonymous said...

THANK YOU. This was just.... perfect.

Anonymous said...

I'm stronger for it, now.



Thank you so much for writing this :)

Anonymous said...

p. flowerpot, nicely written

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Anonymous said...

You killed me, but I'll live again.


Thank you for writing this.

stardust said...

New one of my favorites.
This is just the poem I've long written..
:)

Anonymous said...

you seem to always write what i'm thinking

Anonymous said...

Holy Shit. That hurts.

BeccaLovesYou said...

i'm here barely hanging on the edge..please come save me.

Anonymous said...

Jesus Christ. Jesus. Wow.

Anonymous said...

You make me cry.

nina said...

Makes me cry... Whaaa!

Lost in the Post said...

thankyou.

Kleigh said...

I am speechless. Thank you for writing this.

just_a_human said...

This is a load of crap. Fuck you.

Connie R said...

You touch hearts...and make them feel. You touch minds...and make them remember. You touch me...and make me live.

Anonymous said...

This is exactly what I'm feeling.
Losing someone I thought I knew.
Thinking that one day they might
wonder about me, whether I'm dead or alive.
But I guess that day isn't coming.
Thank you for writing this.

dreamsofserenity said...

I love your blog. Everything written here. Every word. Every line. Kind of made me wish all of these were written for me and only me. :)

Anonymous said...

I thought love isn't suppose to be like that... I thought love was suppose to make you jump up and down all the time with a goofy smile glued to your face all day long.

If this is "love" then this is the only kind of love I know. Something abusive, heinous, lost into the depths of emotions. I want to break free but I know it's just a lie. I feel like the only way this could ever end is if one of us dies.

I need help.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for finding me. I needed you.

Anonymous said...

This one got me here :)

Moonstone said...

Instead it was you who died that day. You died of guilt for breaking my heart and smashing my soul. When will you come back?

ulrichyumiodd said...

Last night, I accidentaly opened the ebook version I have on my cellphone and this is the entry that showed up. I almost cried because these words were exactly the ones I needed to read. Thank you for writing them. Your blog is amazing.

Anonymous said...






Sound familiar?


I never understood how you could be so mean. Now I do. I am not dead. But watch me make a mission out of becoming dead to you for good, on purpose.




Anonymous said...

I understand why you wrote me now. I held no regard for your feelings by my chosen means of communication. My thoughts were constantly misinterpreted and some things I never wrote or thought were anonymously credited to me or you anyhow. You're great. You're kind. You don't deserve this. So I can understand your confusion, your reaction and ultimately that you wouldn't want to be my friend or want anything to do with me. I don't deserve you. I didn't treat you kindly.


I'd like to apologize to you for my immaturity. The good news is today, I'm growing up. Literally. Since we've parted ways, it is only natural for the turmoil of anonymity to end as well. Consider this is my anonymous goodbye.


I love you, I'm sorry, take care.

Kiara Robles said...

Beautiful poem. Thanks for sharing!

Kash said...

Hi, I'd like to take these words and put some music to it. Would that be okay? You can email me back at kash_gk@yahoo.com

Anonymous said...

I hope you know that your words describe perfectly what is going on my life currently. Years later, and you can still touch someone's soul.
"And you weren't mine to begin with, and then not to end with".

Madison said...

Perfect description of my situation!!!!

Lucrezia Borgia said...

From all the way in Cyprus, thank you for writing this for me too. Peace.

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So passionate, raw, I feel like the speaker is speaking directly to me