Sunday, September 13, 2009

The Meaning Of It






















I've tried to say it a thousand different ways. I've tried twisting the words inside out and doubling them back over onto themselves. I've tried coming up with words in different languages, because maybe they have words for this thing (I couldn't say what it is) that we're missing in this one. I've tried saying the same words over and over again in hopes that this time they'll mean what I want them to mean. I've tried writing it down and spelling it out and stressing each syllable across intercontinental static. I've filled up pages and pages of paper with what I'm trying to say, but never with what I mean to say.

Maybe it annoyed you in the end. Maybe I should just stop.

- Loren Barnes

26 comments:

Kay said...

that's just how i feel right now. perfection. i love it.

no matter how you feel, you're not alone in how you're feeling. there is someone for you, right for you, who will know the words you're speaking and who will speak them back to you. give it time.

las said...

this is a good one loren.

Anonymous said...

Never stop.

destined2luvkiki said...

this is really good =)

Anonymous said...

this is exactly how i feel, and you have the same name as me.
weird huh?

misplacedfriend said...

Lauren-
You are full of talent and awesome. Very touching :-)
<3
E

Anonymous said...

it's like meaning one thing and eventually be construed as something else in the end, because at times we're lost for words.

how can two people hear the exact same words uttered differently? i wonder. .

Anonymous said...

But can't you see that I love you? That the reason you can't find what to say isn't because there are no words to fit your emotion. Or that the way you say them isn't correct.

No. It's the meaning behind them. The great emotions that you feel, here and now. They've always been there. Maybe I was just too blind, too alone to even bother to read you. You can't find the words because the feeling is written across your face, your heart. And I was just to naive to even bother to read what they were saying.

I love you. Forgive me.

NS said...

Wonderful! I really like it.

Anonymous said...

It's amazing, as I said before. You're so cool...I'm glad you're one of my bestest friends :)

Anonymous said...

Don't stop!

Chop Logik said...

Well said. You've echoed the futility of communication I feel at times. But never stop.

Kristen. said...

i love reading these.[:
its like the words that i've been trying to say, you write down for me.

hellodan said...

Beautiful

Lady Gray said...

beautiful.

Ivan Ayliffe said...

We build our own cages. We tie our own tongues.

i tried.i did.i give up said...

i guess this is really over...it is over..i wish you all the
happiness you could find..

so long..

HC said...

Don't give up. Ever.

Melissa said...

Precisely.

This is for the better.

I think...

samantha said...

BEAUTIFUL.

t said...

No. Don't stop. Don't ever stop.

And I promise I won't either.

Because I can't.

IthinkIloveyou.

Anonymous said...

i don't know what to believe in you
anymore....
i trusted you with all that i can...
no matter how bad the day ends...
even if i'll say i'm giving you up..

you know that it will take forever before i could even start to do it..

please don't take it for granted..
there's no other me..and there's no other you for me in this world that
could ever ever make me feel this way again..

celebrant said...

but there's one thing i'm sure of...

im never gonna give you up

Miranda said...

I read this at first without realizing what day it had been posted on and I loved it. It describes my feelings right now perfectly. And then I looked at the date. It was my birthday. I almost cried... it felt like some sort of sign.

I love this blog so much. I read it all the time and I can relate closely to every post. I just want to thank you for your beautiful writing, it's helped me sort through my emotions more than I could ever give you proper gratitude for. All I can ask is that you never stop :)

Anonymous said...

never stop :)

Anonymous said...

Yes. Simply, I love you and I want you to love me too.