Friday, September 4, 2009

The Story In The Distance









And you keep whispering the same story to yourself "I'll be unhappy now because that'll make me happy later. Because that's how a story works." So your happiness will always happen later, never now. Life isn't a story. Life is chaos.

31 comments:

E. said...

Unfortunately this is my attitude towards life sometimes.You know me better than I know my own self.You know us all.

Americanising Desi said...

hell that is so true!!!

kimberly anne said...

That is so true, and you know what? I am so done with that. Life ISN'T a story. There are no specified main charachters. There isn't one specific moment where we make one crucial decision that decides our fate. There isn't one resolution that solves everything. There isn't neccessarily a happily ever after. There are no set themes, no set morals, no set plotlines to be followed. Life IS chaos. Chaos, consisting of story upon story, memory upon memory; completely incomprehensible as one big story. Because of this, the only thing we can try to do is be happy now, knowing very well that our happiness can come or go at any given time. We're free to be happy, if we want to be happy, despite the chains of chaos. We have to take advatage of this opportunity. We have to jump in. We have to swim. In the end, what else is there, but what we've done(as opposed to what we've always waited to do)? Today, I'm going to let go. Thank you. I love you. (whether or not I really get it)

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~otto~ said...

Chaos, yes. Narrative is bullshit. But in chaos, you are not limited to unhappiness. Happiness lives there, too. Juts try living in New York City for a while and you will understand what I mean.

Lost in the Post said...

wow, so true. I love this blog.

Aella said...

this life has more chaos than any story ever written.
i wish this was a story.
because then, i could skip through the pages to the end.
to the juicy stuff.

Luna et Soleil said...

That's just depressing T_T

Anonymous said...

Funny thing is, I've been whispering that to myself this past week. I needed this as a reminder to get into the present moment. There is no sense living in the past and dwelling on the things that hurt when all we have is now. I can choose to be unhappy and live in the past, or I can come into the present moment, realize things change and I am free to be happy as I wish. Thank you for this reminder. I love you.

Anonymous said...

You were free of time for a moment.

You moved into the -now- and therefore perceived things without the screen of mind. The awareness of -being- became part of your perception. With the timeless dimension comes a different kind of knowing, one that does not "kill" the spirit that lives within every creature and everything.

A knowing that does not destroy the sacredness and mystery of life but contains a deep love and reverence for all that -is-. A knowing of which the mind knows nothing.

Being alone knows directly. I am present. Now.

vonyd said...

My life is chaos filled with short unrelated stories. I tend to think " I will pretend to be happy now because it will all work out!" My unhappiness gets buried in the physical world until about every 7 years I EXPLODE to let it out so I can pretend to be happy again.
You need to know what makes me unhappy to truly get what I am saying. It's all about the "mundane." I am unhappy with the "mundane" necessities of my life!

Anonymous said...

Excellent shot Jon

c said...

I will choose to live this way because other people deserve more happiness that I do.

Anonymous said...

sometimes i feel down. sometimes i can't even move. but i can live through it. im bipolar, yes. but i can find ways to be happy. unlike you, who is always sad. there isnt anything wrong with you. you just doubt yourself too much. you're ruining yourself and you just dont know. the present is all you need to worry about. money isnt an issue anymore. im going to travel. im going to live in the city. i am going to do something great. because i believe. you just wont wake up one day and be happy. it may take a lot of work, but you have to wake up out of this dream you are constantly turing to.
you need to dream of something else.

im inspired. i truly am.
this is my favorite post. it describes my situation so well.
thank you.

misplacedfriend said...

Life is happening.
Stop, and realize what you have now.
It's insanity to deny yourself happiness. So, observe the chaos and take it for what it is. Nothing more or less.
Just allow yourself to be.

Beautiful post.
Happy weekend, iain.

<3
E

SC said...

Thank you for adding another voice of agreement to this choice I've made. Sometimes I wonder if I'm being too brash or irrational - if I really am more blinded by love than I thought I am.

But he makes me happy. He brings me so much happiness I never knew I could feel this way.

So I am going to stick with my decision to keep that happiness now rather than throw it away because of someone else's opinion that won't even matter in the end. He's a good person, an amazing person, and money should not be such a big issue. It isn't to me.

Life certainly feels like chaos right now. But I think I can withstand the storm.

Krys said...

im always afraid to be happy because im afraid that all of it will end in a blink and i'll become unhappy

misplacedfriend said...

@Krys
I'm always afraid to be unhappy for fear that when my life here comes to an end in a blink, the last thing I'll feel is regret.

;-)

<3

vox caecus said...

"Life isn't a story. Life is chaos."

Quit listening to the poetry. The prose is the only real thing.

minaLOVESyou said...

damn.shoot me now.as in now!!!!

Anonymous said...

Isn't this how we're brought up? I think, for the most part, school and being a teenager is fairly miserable. And it's for what? Qualifications, meaning more money when you're older?
It's so wrong...

Anonymous said...

Isn't this how we're brought up? I think, for the most part, school and being a teenager is fairly miserable. And it's for what? Qualifications, meaning more money when you're older?
It's so wrong...

la reina said...

Life truly is chaos. It somehow just comes together enough for us to retreat to our beds at night; always waiting for the next round.

And sometimes there are those who don't make it to their beds
o.o

cool blog man :]

windowsxt said...

Thanks for being an inspiration to all of us. (:

Kendra Logan said...

Wow, great post--as usual.

~Kendra

l-i-t-e said...

You are writing my thoughts.

Huong said...

yet we continue to live hoping tomorrow will be better

12 said...

This makes me sad. :( Probably because that is exactly what's happening to me right now.

LSY said...

This. Is. Just. So. True!
I couldn't believe you just wrote my deepest thought. A thought which I have not told a single soul before, for my whole 19 years of living on Earth. Amazing.

Anonymous said...

thank you for finding the words for my feelings when i can't.